03-12-2011, 05:55 PM
thanks, Ahktu, i appreciate that.
i've actually never been fully depressed long, i've always had this child-like joy, or at least did in my younger years, i've been getting wearier of late, but i'm always in a flux so i dunno what i'm saying. but then i've had this intense pain, fear and self loathing. and it's such a jolly mix.
i'm a paradox in a paradox in a paradox. that's why it's always hard to see myself in others because i'll be one part and then be the opposite as well. it's very confusing. but i get what you're saying about the meager challenges. but i also know that i came in with some challenges that are hard for others already solved for myself. and maybe we never pay attention to that fact, everyone has different challenges after all, what we might consider easy are hard for someone else. you're not a bucket of anything, nor am i. 
we're all frankenbuckets made of bucketparts of various and glorious things. lol ok i dunno if that's the best way to put it but it sounds fun.
i do wonder how we with mental illness fair now, but we have to have faith and if we make progress, it's progress even if it is tiny muddlements.
and i think the thread you made was really a sign of progress, and a brave thing to do. i think it helped me with my own courage to look deeper and be more honest. so lets not see ourselves as hopeless. and the 4D light increasing we can achieve miracles in shorter time than before.
i've actually never been fully depressed long, i've always had this child-like joy, or at least did in my younger years, i've been getting wearier of late, but i'm always in a flux so i dunno what i'm saying. but then i've had this intense pain, fear and self loathing. and it's such a jolly mix.
i'm a paradox in a paradox in a paradox. that's why it's always hard to see myself in others because i'll be one part and then be the opposite as well. it's very confusing. but i get what you're saying about the meager challenges. but i also know that i came in with some challenges that are hard for others already solved for myself. and maybe we never pay attention to that fact, everyone has different challenges after all, what we might consider easy are hard for someone else. you're not a bucket of anything, nor am i. we're all frankenbuckets made of bucketparts of various and glorious things. lol ok i dunno if that's the best way to put it but it sounds fun.i do wonder how we with mental illness fair now, but we have to have faith and if we make progress, it's progress even if it is tiny muddlements.
and i think the thread you made was really a sign of progress, and a brave thing to do. i think it helped me with my own courage to look deeper and be more honest. so lets not see ourselves as hopeless.
and the 4D light increasing we can achieve miracles in shorter time than before.