03-12-2011, 03:30 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-12-2011, 03:35 PM by turtledude23.)
(03-12-2011, 03:19 PM)Ocean Wrote: thank you, Turtledude.
that's a beautiful quote. and song. it's funny, i was listening to David Wilcock channel Ra today and i dunno, the way he spoke made me feel so good, this really good feeling came over me. somehow i have to find that inside me, though, so i can radiate it when in those situations. i know meditation is key for this. i just keep forgetting. gotta turn off the mind.
i have always had a lot of self-loathing for some reason, i'm starting to think i had some weird issue in a past life, how else could i be born so clueless and distorted? on the one hand it's like i was a plant in a previous life, and on the other someone from 6th density. maybe i'm a hybrid of the two. a plant alien. like The Thing.
isn't meditating in the woods cheating? i feel like i'll have no catalyst there so i won't learn to get along with people. believe me i'd love to go live in the woods.
You're welcome
We all have self-loathing to some extent, you're not alone. Think about it: STO is about acceptance of self (and by extension all selves), but most of us on this forum seem pretty comfortable with ourselves. But clearly none of us have fully accepted ourselves or we'd be adepts, which means we all self-loath to some extent. Admitting a problem is the first step to solving it. You have the power within you to do it, believe in yourself, use the love thats all around you and in you, and you'll be unstoppable.
Ocean and 3DM: as someone who has spent the majority of their life in voluntary isolation let me tell you that eventually you'll reach the end of unmanifested self catalyst and have a deep longing to be around others and to experience all that seemingly unpleasant social catalyst. But discovering yourself comes before harmonious interaction with others, I hope you'll re-consider my advice.