Ra Initiation = Torture?

[LeiwoUnion]

Initiation like this is like, shall I say, a forest fire. Terrifying and destructive, doesn't discriminate over a plant, a tree, a predator, prey, a building, even a human. When all old has been wiped clean, then a new unique, fresh and revitalized forest may be reborn on the newly fertilized soil. We're all overgrown with red, orange and yellow ray based foundations, structures, constructs and other thought forms. For a crystallized being, or adept, none of this has any value and must be dropped. Opening the gateway to infinite intelligence may be approached via gradual balancing work, or via previously mentioned initiation ritual (among other ways). Facing all of the lower center distortions/blockages in need of dismantling (some may call this shadow work) at once can be an excruciating experience when the 'ego self' cries for its 'survival', so to speak.

There's nothing wrong in this when done willingly, and I'm quite certain those initial initiation processes were for volunteers only that had some idea what they would be facing in there. Initiation, as far as I know, only works through conscious or unconscious calling anyway. It's quite unfortunate that the negatives were allowed to co-opt the process, through the grievous naivete shown by those of Ra at the time. However, I have no reason to believe their intention wasn't pure.

This is ONLY my understanding.