05-10-2022, 09:46 AM
Thank you, loverising, for sharing your touching, intimate story. Welcome here!
This resonates: I am slowly releasing the character of "God" from my Southern Baptist upbringing. Having said that, I also keep some teachings. Discernment and resonance. Catalyst, when I seize the opportunity presented to me, allows me to explore what it is, and make a conscious choice to keep, transmute, or release the distorted energy I've been carrying within me into the Great Ocean. A slow process.
Your words here and in other places remind me of my experiences. In those moments of bliss, the Love and Oneness feels so true and profound and perceptible, yet simultaneously elusive. It feels like reaching, reaching, reaching for something, and knowing it's there -- tasting it, feeling it, ... experiencing it with all of my sense -- and at the same time, not quite being able to step into it fully.
Many times, I feel alone with other humans, yet connected deeply with Earth, 2D and the spiritual realm. So, I go through 'hermit' periods ... hibernation ... alone time to seek, learn, synthesize.
When I'm with others, I too easily get caught up in others' energies and tempo; I lose my bearings, balance quite easily. It's likely my hyper-empathy (a great gift and curse, both ... how to be one with it is one of my life-long learnings). I can better serve when I have hermit times to stabilize and rejuvenate.
(01-28-2022, 06:53 PM)loverising Wrote: I was not afraid or worried in the slightest but overwhelmed with joy. It told me to think of God as the “Divine Creator” and not an overbearing God in the way I had believed it to be from my Christian upbringing. ...
This resonates: I am slowly releasing the character of "God" from my Southern Baptist upbringing. Having said that, I also keep some teachings. Discernment and resonance. Catalyst, when I seize the opportunity presented to me, allows me to explore what it is, and make a conscious choice to keep, transmute, or release the distorted energy I've been carrying within me into the Great Ocean. A slow process.
(01-28-2022, 06:53 PM)loverising Wrote: I was enlightened with feelings of the connectedness of everything that felt deep, ... I couldn’t even fathom I was crazy because I knew in my soul it was pure and real. ... It felt familiar but still out of order and not quite right, but very, very, close. I still had many questions and no one to talk to. It was not an easy experience and my life shifted upside down. When people talk about spiritual awakenings as being hard it is because you are forced to shed all things that no longer serve your spiritual growth. It becomes unconscious as you no longer have a tolerance for things that do not serve your life’s purpose anymore. I lived like a hermit for over a year and continued expanding my knowledge of everything divine. I was alone and forced to confront my demons. I felt like I couldn’t relate to anyone anymore, I didn’t want to bring other people down with my confused energy while I was going through it. And I didn’t want to be perceived crazy for talking about it.
Your words here and in other places remind me of my experiences. In those moments of bliss, the Love and Oneness feels so true and profound and perceptible, yet simultaneously elusive. It feels like reaching, reaching, reaching for something, and knowing it's there -- tasting it, feeling it, ... experiencing it with all of my sense -- and at the same time, not quite being able to step into it fully.
Many times, I feel alone with other humans, yet connected deeply with Earth, 2D and the spiritual realm. So, I go through 'hermit' periods ... hibernation ... alone time to seek, learn, synthesize.
When I'm with others, I too easily get caught up in others' energies and tempo; I lose my bearings, balance quite easily. It's likely my hyper-empathy (a great gift and curse, both ... how to be one with it is one of my life-long learnings). I can better serve when I have hermit times to stabilize and rejuvenate.