(04-10-2022, 12:58 AM)aWanderer91 Wrote: Very well put Zedro and I really appreciate your input here. I feel I'm becoming more grounded, more detached from the label of "wanderer", only gradually but it's happening. The initial high of realising (feeling) I was a wanderer was beautiful, but I can't help but feel it's a label I've become attached to, while it leaves me more detached from others and my surroundings on earth.
I see up to now that it's almost taken me away from my mission, while I feel I've made no ego out of this in terms of feeling I'm above anyone for thinking I'm a wanderer, I've definitely spent too long in the narrative of wondering where my soul originates from as if this information is more important than my present lifetime on earth. A lot has sunk in since I posted this thread yesterday.
I just want to focus on the now and enjoy being a human being for the time being
It's funny because I've been in the opposite position, I've been hesitant to ever defacto consider myself as such, worrying about the ego aspect and how insane it can all be considered (despite the insane circumstances I've been through), and that has also maybe set me back in some ways (at the time at least). For me, the responsibility is pretty terrifying, that I have something to live up to, which means there is something to fail at. So I've been very reluctant to adopt the description, despite having strangers come out of the woodwork to help me understand.
Also seeing how it can affect people, turning them into the 'holy man' and adopting a new (fake) personality as a wise guru, or worse, witnessing the cultish aspects that can manifest around them from impressionable people who seek divine leadership.
They way I look at it, if we are considering ourselves as a wanderers, we've got alot of work to do on ourselves and need to be vigilant to maintain one's potential. And it's nothing to boast about, our past spiritual accomplishments should simply be a scaffold that reminds one that they can do this as long as they keep a good healthy perspective.