The difficulties of being a lightworker.

[zedro]

The truth and resonance felt towards your message Zedro is quite astonishing. I believe we are karmically clamped down too, I've contemplated this a lot. Almost like there's a price to pay before we are allowed to offer our full service, I've heard spiritual teachers refer to these kind of things before too.

I also feel that when the time comes we will be activated, know what to do and be allowed to serve in full capacity.

However we won't know the clarity and full truth to why we feel this way until the time comes and if the time comes.

Let's hope we're right

I have come to this conclusion with alot of first hand experience with myself and some around me. My friend calls it back-pressure, I call it the double edged sword. For example, if I do one of my plant medicine meditations, there are 2 phases, the positive one where I connect to the divine for the wisdom I seek (this can be thru claireaudio psychic connection or intuitive truth), and the negative one where I get psychically harassed, almost like the punishment for seeking. Certain things come with a price, like a battle card game where I pick and 'they' pick in response. The intensity of this comeback seems to be dependent the impact of the connection, on cyclic energies (cosmological? ), and my frame of mind/energy state. They exploit chinks in the light armor (distortions), including those of other people around me if possible in the rare case (my guess is vulnerable individuals who's polarity is leaning negative get easily temporarily exploited). So I walk the line, with my practice and with others, and have over time developed the ability (somehow) to energetically sense when I'm about to step into dog doo with someone and avoid the interaction. And when I don't get that pre-cognitive warning, it's usually because there was something to learn.