06-02-2009, 05:23 AM
Hello, my dear friends. I had an interesting experience yesterday, which I would like to share and discuss with you. I would also like to hear your own experiences regarding the matter.
I had what you would call a "conscious negative greeting". I was lying in my bed, having quite a rare feeling of clarity and focus of gratitude towards All. I did this for some time, then mental things began to happen.
It begun quite small. Some random bad thoughts, coming from seemingly nowhere. They made little sense, and I have a hard time remembering them. But I believe you can easily imagine unpleasant thoughts.
There was a feeling of my walls coming down on me, quite suffocating.
I saw in my mind's eye a man with a great axe coming towards my bed, and I screamed aloud and opened my eyes in fear. But of course, there was nothing there.
So I was finally disencouraged, quite freaked out, and went to sleep. I do still have a feeling of reluctance on focusing on complete gratitude in this moment, because of mentioned experiences. It truly felt as if these things had been placed in my hear from an unknown source. I was simply focusing on love and gratitude, why would I not be able to see these things in the same perspective?
If anything, this experience has made me question my sanity. Perhaps this was the ultimate intent of these greetings...
Yet, this is a great catalyst. I would like thank my negative friends for it, if I only dared!
I had what you would call a "conscious negative greeting". I was lying in my bed, having quite a rare feeling of clarity and focus of gratitude towards All. I did this for some time, then mental things began to happen.
It begun quite small. Some random bad thoughts, coming from seemingly nowhere. They made little sense, and I have a hard time remembering them. But I believe you can easily imagine unpleasant thoughts.
There was a feeling of my walls coming down on me, quite suffocating.
I saw in my mind's eye a man with a great axe coming towards my bed, and I screamed aloud and opened my eyes in fear. But of course, there was nothing there.
So I was finally disencouraged, quite freaked out, and went to sleep. I do still have a feeling of reluctance on focusing on complete gratitude in this moment, because of mentioned experiences. It truly felt as if these things had been placed in my hear from an unknown source. I was simply focusing on love and gratitude, why would I not be able to see these things in the same perspective?
If anything, this experience has made me question my sanity. Perhaps this was the ultimate intent of these greetings...
Yet, this is a great catalyst. I would like thank my negative friends for it, if I only dared!