A way of being...

[aWanderer91]

All that could have been written by myself
I can so relate to what you wrote!!! and for a while I was so depressed because I thought I would never be able to get "enlightened", due to not being able to meditate regularly.
It was only when I discovered some vedantic teachings, that emphasize other ways - like for example bhakti which will surrender oneself to god. It works quite well for me, you can do it with every little thing you do during the day - if you go for a walk, surrender that walk to god. If you go shopping surrender that.... anything!
Or if there is something I am afraid of I will surrender that and it usually works wonderfully and some solutions which I could not have envisioned pop up....
And my former therapist once remarked that all one has to do, is constantly focus one's mind on god or the divine or whatever you will call it, that alone should suffice - "what you hold in mind that you will eventually become".....
Actually I think doing it at all times during the day, as much as possible might actually be better than meditating only in the morning and for the rest of the day forgetting about the spiritual and being engaged in mundane activities.
So do not feel guilt if you cannot meditate regularly, there are definitely other ways and from what you wrote you already seem to have a good grasp and are well on your way at your young age

Thank you for your response Margan! It's very reassuring to hear and I love that we are on the same page.

I completely agree that surrender at all times of the day must surmount the spiritual accumulation gathered with a morning and evening meditation practice.

"What you hold in mind will eventually become" is analogue to what my guides told me only a couple of days ago. It was "this is the quality of faith (referencing what I need to hold onto to fulfill my goals on earth), and faith always finds fulfillment".

Great stuff, and may god's will be done through us