All that could have been written by myself 
I can so relate to what you wrote!!! and for a while I was so depressed because I thought I would never be able to get "enlightened", due to not being able to meditate regularly.
It was only when I discovered some vedantic teachings, that emphasize other ways - like for example bhakti which will surrender oneself to god. It works quite well for me, you can do it with every little thing you do during the day - if you go for a walk, surrender that walk to god. If you go shopping surrender that.... anything!
Or if there is something I am afraid of I will surrender that and it usually works wonderfully and some solutions which I could not have envisioned pop up....
And my former therapist once remarked that all one has to do, is constantly focus one's mind on god or the divine or whatever you will call it, that alone should suffice - "what you hold in mind that you will eventually become".....
Actually I think doing it at all times during the day, as much as possible might actually be better than meditating only in the morning and for the rest of the day forgetting about the spiritual and being engaged in mundane activities.
So do not feel guilt if you cannot meditate regularly, there are definitely other ways and from what you wrote you already seem to have a good grasp and are well on your way at your young age
I can so relate to what you wrote!!! and for a while I was so depressed because I thought I would never be able to get "enlightened", due to not being able to meditate regularly.
It was only when I discovered some vedantic teachings, that emphasize other ways - like for example bhakti which will surrender oneself to god. It works quite well for me, you can do it with every little thing you do during the day - if you go for a walk, surrender that walk to god. If you go shopping surrender that.... anything!
Or if there is something I am afraid of I will surrender that and it usually works wonderfully and some solutions which I could not have envisioned pop up....
And my former therapist once remarked that all one has to do, is constantly focus one's mind on god or the divine or whatever you will call it, that alone should suffice - "what you hold in mind that you will eventually become".....
Actually I think doing it at all times during the day, as much as possible might actually be better than meditating only in the morning and for the rest of the day forgetting about the spiritual and being engaged in mundane activities.
So do not feel guilt if you cannot meditate regularly, there are definitely other ways and from what you wrote you already seem to have a good grasp and are well on your way at your young age
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