I have forgotten how to love

[sillypumpkins]

Thanks for sharing Jeremy. While it seems I might be somewhat younger than you in earth years, I can relate to much of what you posted. 

I feel prompted to quote this section from session 18 upon reading your post: 

Ra: I am Ra. The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away.