01-26-2022, 07:57 AM
Regret is the wrong word, there's always been a deep feeling inside of me that I'm here for a deeper purpose. But unsurety as to why I'm here and me guessing my wisdom at planning an incarnation has been predominant thoughts of mine as the years go past. I seem to of chosen such enormous and endless catalyst.
I was always different, but not in the type that sat in the background etc, I was always the popular kid at school and excelled at everything. But I lived in such a timeless state as a child, which I couldn't understand this timelessness and why 6 hours could feel like 6 seconds to me. And I lived like this for some of my adult life, I'm now 30 years of age and the older I get the more I see my gifts disappear and my heart become worn. Time seems to become slower and more of a drag on myself.
Ra's advice is to love and love until you can't take anymore, then it would be wise to withdraw and recuperate until you are ready to step back out into the world again. I have never withdrew love my whole life, except for the past year as I lost my mother late 2020 and have since felt my heart shutting down and I have cut off from everyone. I had such a huge circle of friends before this.
Ah, to be a wanderer, we must be so brave and have seen things so different before we arrived here. I use one of Q'uo's quotes to get me by, when they say that when we are struggling and times are tough, remember we had great reason to incarnate in the first place. That we are here for a purpose, which is to vibrate high and love as much as we can.
I'm not sure I'll see this incarnation all the way through. I feel so forgotten by God, I miss home and I'm not sure I'll ever fully accept and understand the ways of this world. I incarnated around so many service to self beings and the constant clash leaves me so tired and wanting to be around my own kind.
But I will always give 100% while I'm here and I refuse to live in regret. I know regret is the deep pitfall that one will find it extremely hard to come back from
I was always different, but not in the type that sat in the background etc, I was always the popular kid at school and excelled at everything. But I lived in such a timeless state as a child, which I couldn't understand this timelessness and why 6 hours could feel like 6 seconds to me. And I lived like this for some of my adult life, I'm now 30 years of age and the older I get the more I see my gifts disappear and my heart become worn. Time seems to become slower and more of a drag on myself.
Ra's advice is to love and love until you can't take anymore, then it would be wise to withdraw and recuperate until you are ready to step back out into the world again. I have never withdrew love my whole life, except for the past year as I lost my mother late 2020 and have since felt my heart shutting down and I have cut off from everyone. I had such a huge circle of friends before this.
Ah, to be a wanderer, we must be so brave and have seen things so different before we arrived here. I use one of Q'uo's quotes to get me by, when they say that when we are struggling and times are tough, remember we had great reason to incarnate in the first place. That we are here for a purpose, which is to vibrate high and love as much as we can.
I'm not sure I'll see this incarnation all the way through. I feel so forgotten by God, I miss home and I'm not sure I'll ever fully accept and understand the ways of this world. I incarnated around so many service to self beings and the constant clash leaves me so tired and wanting to be around my own kind.
But I will always give 100% while I'm here and I refuse to live in regret. I know regret is the deep pitfall that one will find it extremely hard to come back from
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