01-07-2022, 11:16 AM
Quote:Hi Ericon,
Thank you for taking this opportunity to speak, and so candidly, I might add. I really enjoyed skipping along some of the big highlights of your 32-year incarnate journey thus far.
From age 15 for many years onward, it sounds like substances played a predominant role in your life as a means of coping and self-medicating (along with the usual more superficial culprits of escapism and pleasure-seeking). It's incredible, actually, how these two threads - the spiritual development (of the higher centers) and the personality development (of the lower centers) - can coexist side by side and be out of balance.
Thank you Steppingfeet.
I am likely to have used substances as a way of coping in a very destructive manner. It was what I loved. I still like intoxication.
Quote:In simple maybe simplistic terms, higher openings seem to tend to amplify the unhealed tangles of the lower. Which is a good thing, ultimately, if the catalyst is used. But because the missteps in the night are "oh! so easy," it can go the other way too.
That's right, interesting. Having been asleep, some latent personality traits being shone light upon by awakening to the timeless truth of the One, are possibly likely to jump out of deep sleep roaring. It's emphasized. It can go both ways, generally. It will go infinitely many ways, specifically.
Quote:If identifiable, what was the catalyst for the "suddenly"? What triggered you to become conscious that you were "searching for something"? Not of any particular consequence, as the outer mechanism is just the outworking of a much deeper internal process, but I'm always curious what sparks the conscious seeking.
It was an intense, life long gradual building up of intensity and an eventual recognition of helplessness. One important trigger was the recognition of Truth in the path so cleverly lovingly offered by Yogani.
Quote:This emanates a great degree of peace with the self, with what is. Catastrophe combined with the death/rebirth experience facilitated by LSD seems to have contributed to this present degree of equanimity. Is there anything else to which you would attribute a release of the tumult in the abidance of what is?
Acceptance is what I would attribute it to. It is a day-by-day or moment-to-moment thing or new reality. Material such as the Law of One has been very soothing as of late. Teach/learners as Mooji and Eckhart Tolle to name a few have also attributed to stability. LSD is likely to have helped quite a bit. Restrictiveness of cannabis consumption also seem to be important for this one at this time. So, in addition to acceptance, some discipline of the personality has been needed. Lets just call it acceptance/discipline. Two halves of the same cookie. Running and other regular physical activity are needed too.
Quote:"There is an answer. You're it." Another variation on You are the truth that you seek. I love it.
Thanks again, Ericon. Blessings.
Yes. Thank you very much. Have you consciously penetrated into what is?