I need help :(

[sillypumpkins]

hello squirrel (I love your name btw)

as I read your post, I could swear that was me who typed up all that you had posted.

I struggle as well with maintaining/cultivating close relationships with others. I am really good at making acquaintances, however when it comes to maintaining or deepening those relationships.... well. That can be really hard for me.

I also tend to feel quite lonely... even in a group of people.

Sometimes I have some clarity and I ask myself “I wonder how many people feel the same way I do” in other words, I wonder how many share in the same feelings I have, that is, share in the loneliness.

You could be sitting alone at a bar (or a coffee shop) feeling utter loneliness, and attaching some truth to that (thinking that you are in fact alone) and right next to you could be someone feeling the exact same way. There is something kind of hilarious about that to me, and when I think about that it relieves some burden too sometimes.

Life on earth is really hard for most of us. I know what it’s like to desire death over life in the face of harsh circumstance. I think that’s ok too.