I need help :(

[tadeus]

I just want to leave this place. The isolation and alienation is unbearable.
I just want to retreat to a beautiful spot in nature, and let myself disappear into nothingness. 

I don't know what else to do. Please help me

Have you already read Carla's Wanderer's Handbook ?

It helps to understand that this feelings are 'normal'.

When it helps, go into the nature whenever you have the possibility.
I am doing the same.

We are now entering probably the most difficult phase of the new age - but that is probably what we came here for, to support mankind in it.