The heart beat

[BlatzAdict]

I was never in love... But then again, im just 21 years old. I had many experiences with girls but having something like a girlfriend which i can share my love with...never. I think that is one of the things i need in order to heal my heart.
I really got to make the decision and go see a doctor even though this thought is kind of scary to me.

It seems as if you are taking responsibility and being honest and open with what you are feeling in your regular life at the same time.

First of all it is wise to believe that you are attracting exactly the kind of person you u are, not the kind of person you want. Put out sex energy and then sex comes to you, put out love and love comes to you. But I've found this goes deeper. Look for someone and don't rush it but get to know them, because you need to learn for yourself what makes them happy, and how you can make them happy. Do this and you will find and attract someone who does the same, who gets to know you and finds things about u that make u happy.

Usually I find that when people date, they kinda shoot at each other in the dark, and then it becomes two people who aren't dating each other, but dating each other's expectations about how the relationship should be.

similarly, i just learned this
All soulmate unions tend to be self actualized. Self actualized meaning, not to be too judgemental, know what you want but be flexible.
Let go of judgement, blame and expectations. Accept that what is, is.
It is your resistance to what is that causes your suffering. - Buddha

doesn't mean to date someone u don't like at all either of course lol. it's all about finding someone who u think u can serve but u won't find that out without getting to know them slowly as people rather than as girlfriends. It's a hard thing to learn and to master but I think as long as you have the willpower to put your intention into the RIGHT action... then u will find success in your endeavors.