07-27-2021, 12:39 PM
(07-27-2021, 02:29 AM)J.W. Wrote:(07-26-2021, 01:01 PM)Desaad khaan Wrote: I Believe that I am one of God chosen one, her spoiled child, everything is mine. I deserve that. I am unstoppable, harvest or not.
A child, yes...
ignorant, yes....
"new" and unstoppable? mmm... not quite... your speech comes from a place of anguish and adolescent fiery recklessness.
You are underestimating the "environment" of the STS path. It is not what you think with your current state of mind.
This is an example of a version of what you will experience, be my guest... they welcome you, with open claws.
https://near-death.com/howard-storm-nde/
I lived through war, grew up in a war zone, been sacrificed in a ritual to some entities because some member of my family wanted to be wealthy. I was born in a free mason/warlock/witches family which practice heavy witchcraft and some elder feed off their offspring by sacrificing them for earthly goods most of the time. Believe me or not.
I know that it isn't easy, but you won't understand my hunger, my yearning for power and how I despise weakness. I was born with love I still have it, but after having endured so much, precious being sacrificed, tortured. What do you do when you can't save those you love ? Taken by bullets, machete, rape, violence ? Yet I am still alive. This path is what I know. It is very real for me.
You won't understand, you see it in movies or read it but living it not once but time and time again, either you adapt or you give up. People say staring at the pit changes you, what about being born in it cradled by the music of bullet, the scream and fear. What about being poisoned and waiting for an evil entity to take you and felling its its cold aura ? If hell his a territory that means it can be conquered.
Even in the deepest hell I shall thrive, fire can't burn suns. Regardless of the environment I am wired to reach the top I don't have the choice like you don it's in the very fabric of my being, pure domination. Your comment triggered many memories that was forgotten, this is nostalgic, but I do not want your pity that's life.