Dealing with sexuality.

[Ming the Merciful]

I've read the guidelines about posting on  this subject. I know it can be a tricky and sensitive one, but I feel like I really need feedback on this subject. I hope what I have to  say is okay with  the community  and moderators and that it is appropriate enough. If not, feel free to delete the thread  and let me know and I will refrain from making any posts or threads about this subject in the future. I wish to fully cooperate in this respect. I hope everyone who participates in  this discussion is able to do so in an appropriate way as well.

Here's my issue. We all have sexual natures. It's even part of the basis of our chakra system and  so I think there's no getting rid of it. My problem with it is that, for personal reasons, having a partner with which to express this very fundamental part of human nature in a positive, STO manner is not an option. So I feel like, not being able to get rid of sexuality, I'm forced to express it in what I feel is STS in nature. I wish for everything about me to be STO, so this is very  frustrating to me. The issue is made worse b/c when sexuality is STS, it causes blockages in the red and orange ray chakras, which makes it like a wildfire which easily burns it's way into much distortion. This then begins to affect other areas of your life and can cause a lot of misery. I don't know if there's any way to reverse this process or heal the damage when the root of the problem cannot be dug out or dealt with in a positive fashion. Maybe  it can.

How do I solve this problem? I'm sure I'm not the only one who has struggled with it. Any advice would be  appreciated. I haven't read all  the vast  amounts of Confederation channeling in L/L's library yet. Maybe someone knows of some q'uotes that may help me. I wish I could just  get rid of it altogether. lol. Maybe this is one of my life's lessons for which I incarnated to work on or maybe it just comes with the package of being human. I don't  know. Being able to reign in this energy and use it to perform high magic with an other-self in the presence of and dedicated to the One Creator, making sweeps of positive polarization, would be a dream. Maybe in another life...

Brandon, I think you are approaching this from the wrong angle. There is nothing wrong with sex, (physically or philosophically). I have studied Zen, and a large part of Zen Training in Tantra. Or, learning how to control the sexual desires, (or the natural order of things). According to the solution from the Buddhist Philosophy is not to deny it, but to embrace it. By denying your natural sexual desires, it will only cause psychological damage to yourself. Before I studied Zen, I was, (of all things), a "Fundamentalist" Christian, and I had a similar viewpoint, which I now consider as very negative and childish. First, you are a Human Being, with Human desires. Accept them for what they are. According to Christian tradition, it is wrong to enjoy your sexual nature. It was because of such beliefs I turned my back on Christianity, and much was gained from Tantric Knowledge. With proper training in Tantra, it can speed-up the stages to Self-Liberation. Second, unless you are planning to live a life of austerity and living as a hermit, and giving up sex, then it should be avoided. Be what you are, and be your natural self.