Grateful/Law of One

[Dtris]

Hello everyone.

I spent some time away from the Ra material, mainly because the rather complex archetypical mind discussion in book iv can get rather cumbersome for me if I try to absorb it too quickly. (if at all, I am finding book iv by far the hardest to grasp conceptually). Anyways, I returned to it yesterday, and my oh my it felt like my whole body rejoiced to be hearing from Ra again. Chills, verge of tears. No other spiritual work has affected me like the Law of One. Reflecting on these past few months now that I've finished the main books, I just wanted to express my thanks to Don, Carla, and Jim for this gift to humanity.

I feel so grateful that I stumbled upon these works and this community, for the work itself and these forums make me feel very much at home. I still have a few considerations that have been itching at me while I'm reading though and I'd like to explore them.

The material has moved me to tears a few times. I remember the most recent time I came back to it after many years away and the first session was amazing in its ability to move the heart.

The concept of 'service to others' makes some sense to me, but also my logical brain struggles with the boundaries of service.

Is service to 2nd density life just as meaningful as 3rd density? How do small moments of anger and lashing out effect polarity? How can I, as an introverted person who does not have a whole lot of human interaction, offer myself in a greater capacity to others? Are those with a lot of friends inherently more service to others oriented? When I indulge in cravings that I know deep down are not good for me(nicotine, sugar, caffeine, etc.) is this service to self/depolarizing?

Yes, service is service. Some people are dedicated to animals or plants, others to people. What is important is that you don't put animals or plants above people in your heart or use your service to animals or plants as a way to justify negative behavior toward people.

Anger and lashing out are normal. Being STO does not mean you won't get angry or lash out. More important is to utilize that catalyst and learn from those outbursts and to apologize and forgive all involved. Every extreme emotional reaction is basically a neon sign telling you something you need to work on.

Introverts can be very STO. You don't need to go out of your way to be of service unless you feel the need. Let the opportunity for service arise naturally. There are many ways to serve and being in the open so to speak is only one way of doing it.

People with lots of friends are just people with lots of friends. Polarity has little to do with it, but more just the emphasis upon different parts of life.

Engaging in self destructive behavior is not positively polarizing or really negative polarizing either. There will be other reasons and issues which you may need to address over time, or it can be simple habit or physical addiction. Even damaging substances are not necessarily bad in moderation, just some things are inherently very difficult to moderate.

Also, I have loved ones around me that suffer from depression, lethargy, and addiction. I feel so strongly that an understanding of some spiritual topics addressed in Law of One, as well as many other spiritual texts could help them immensely. I've found that suggesting these works to them is usually met with initial interest, but no follow through. It is not my intent to force any material on anyone. But it begins to affect me deeply when those closest to me are so blinded by negativity, anger, and depression.

How do I be of service to these people?
Am i supposed to love them and be around them as much as they wish? even if it brings me down?

When I'm feeling strong I can resist the negativity within myself but sometimes I can't help but become angry or frustrated with them.

Everyone has someone that goes thru those things. The best we can do is make the offer, or share our own beliefs when they ask, or the conversation goes that way. Each individual has their own path to walk, we can only be a guidepost really, and occasionally point in the right direction.

If you want to polarize STO, you should love everyone. The harder someone is to love, the more important it is for you to try. Loving someone does not mean you don't have healthy boundaries, or set your own standards for what you will and will not do or how much time you invest. If you want to keep being a light in the storm you have to make sure you have enough oil to burn, don't let a single person or situation drain you dry.

Don't resist the negativity. Let it be. Experience in it, dive into it. Let it fill every fiber of your being. Then accept it as a part of you, and let it go. It's ok to be angry and frustrated. Forgive yourself and them, and all will work out in the end.