Why if the choice is Love does Ra say the choice is service?

[ANGEL]

It's easy to be only empathetic and caring.  It's also easy to discover the more painful sides of self.  But it is just not so easy to hold both of these together in one being and remain reasonably poised.  You're, evidently, doing the work of learning to hold both your light and dark elements and love self as a whole.  This is a journey, and not a simple, easy one, so prepare yourself to forgive yourself often for not finding your way through this in a month or a year or a decade or a lifetime.

I am not now  and have never been only empathic and caring and it has at least for me, never been easy to discover these painful sides in myself but when I spoke of these I meant unknowingly acting in these ways but able to admit I have made mistakes that may be responsible  and certainly others, whom are me too have done so, in the past. . This is insight and acceptance for my part in why people would choose to not love.

 

On the other hand, it seems that this might be what you chose to do here, and if that was your pre-incarnative choice, then the spiritual resources available to you are powerful.  Of course, for them to become actively available to you is part of the work you are doing.  What is that? 

This gave me more hope, and is actually perceptive of you. Indeed, my life journey truly must have been a preincarnative choice and that was to learn and understand the negative self path, how their minds and thoughts are different, how they see us or those like myself,  what they value and don't basically like Ra has said, how to love them without being  placed under their heel. More than that but clearly it has been one hell of a journey and though I have now obtained a pretty full perception of at least cluster b personality disorders etc., the journey has taken its toll on me, though I am beginning to see hope for them, and intend to help bring that hope to those who are already positioned to spread the message most affectively to those afflicted and ready for healing.

And yes if it had not been for the continuous and faithful support of many friends in the universe and God himself someday,  I would not have made it through with my life still intact. I can still smell the stench of hatred and the hopelessness of the pain in the pit I fought in daily to save my life. My resources walk and fight along side me, every moment of the day. I gave up twice and each time I realized this was not my choice to make and someone lent me a hand and pulled me out of that gravity well and grip. I have been that warrior goddess and I'm tired and gave up the sword permanently. This does not mean darkness has won. In fact it means love wins as always. Being able to love the self is clearly the final lesson for us all. I'm still working on that one but I'll get there. I'm proud of this lifetimes work and its successfull integration. It is by far the most difficult journey I can imagine. I have a respect for both paths and my heart bleeds for so many of the otherselves victims and abuser.

For your helpers to be able to help you more effectively, you must purify your seeking of truth, your seeking of Divine beauty or however you would frame it.  To a purified heart are given gifts of Spirit.

First of all wow.!  The help I have needed, despite those who ignorantly, work to censor and obstruct, has been given to me tens of thousands fold. I am blessed and loved and graciously so. Supernaturally directed in many cases. I truly want to know what it is you see in me that indicates I need to purify my seeking of truth. I have a right to know and I mean don't hold back anything. From where I am sitting it is obvious to me that something you think k you see or know is very incorrect or at the least very judgemental. I have often said and truly believe so much of life could easily be transcended if those in Authoritative positions etc, judging and censoring obstructing simply utilized communication skills and spoke to those they work hard to harm and restrict. Perhsps one could then grow together In Love light and truth. You do realize you actually told me I need to purify my seeking of truth right?? So how is that you believe that my heart is unpure and secondly that my seeking  of truth needs purified? I demand a straight answer here.

So, don't just pack a lunch and expect to get home before nightfall.  Prepare yo
urself properly for a quest worthy of a lifetime.

I didn't pack a lunch, there has been no time. When you get up close and very personal with those on the negative path, let's just say nice things like a lunch are the farthest thing from thought and the very least of your worries. Trust me its been a life time and I have an accute memory of each and every day. Its been painful and hard and lonely and scary and full of magic too. I have been blessed and protected while I did it but only from total obliteration and perhaps given the time to take this journey too. Hard road. I made it though the toll is easy to see.  Every time I try to move to the next step forward , we'll it seems someone tries to thwart this effort. Every time. Strange huh??