Feeling the transformation process

[tadeus]

You've been participating in the forums, so I don't know if I should offer a welcome here. And this isn't so much of a wanderer story but a little introduction along with your recent experience and inquiry into the nature of time. But! To you, Tadeus, I shall say welcome nonetheless. And thank you for sharing your calm energy here on Bring4th. : )

Thank you.
At this time i am on a short excursion / holiday.
On the outbound trip i did have an epiphany of elastic time again, because i had driven a way that needs normally about 90 minutes in 45 minutes.
I was driving very relaxed and could feel that my time was slower than the surrounding, but nevertheless i was surprised to arrive to early.

I do feel a sense of ease and peace when reading of your recent experiences and realizations. It sounds to me like it has a flavor of peering into the non-solidity of all things - everything is in flux and flow and transformation. That can be a realization to lose oneself in a non-life serving dis-integration way, or it can be a realization to lose oneself in an upwarding moving self-transcending sort of way, I suppose.

This experiences and realizations are often only for a short period of time.
The peering into the non-solidity of all things is primary seen by the observer.
It seems that the observer is really an independent instance not coupled with spirituality in a direct way,
Today my magic biorhythm is in a critical state and spirituality dead, but the observer was still active.
The observer could notice the physical state of the body after walking for 6 miles as a strained vehicle and not as an tired ego.

At any rate, impermanence is a key insight in vipassana meditation and Buddhist teaching in general. I would think such insight would really help to unloosen the grip of that which needs the illusion of its own permanence, that which you describe as the ego.

That's a good question - it's somehow like that the ego is not surpressed nor restive - it's just like that the consciousness of the ego is not bound to the body any more.