I have found my way to the Ra material over the "Hidden Hand" thread more than one year ago.
Reading the Ra material had given the feeling of deep understanding to me, but left me with a bit desorientation.
After beginning to read Carla's "A wanderer's handbook" i could find myself in the stories, and the presumption to be wanderer explains all the unknown feelings and events that happens in my previous life.
The presumption turns more and more into certitude of being a wanderer in the last year.
There is the feeling that i am here at this place for a good reason. It would be wrong to leave the place where i am living, that i have choosen in 2012.
Today there was a very intensive feeling of disharmony with my body and my surroundings.
My intuition let me go outside into the forest and meditate to get clear.
After a short time the disharmony transforms into the perception that a transformation process is working heavily.
I am feeling still like having a distance to my body and intellect and being a observer of all.
But it is not the feeling of desintegration, it is like seeing of all being in transformation, without understanding what is really going on.
It's more like observing that the Ego is not the leading authority any more and will go more and more into symbiosis with the soul / higher self.
So for the intellect it is more fascinating then the fear to get crazy. There is the perception that everything is fine.
Additional there is a common identity with this planet and especially with the matter of it.
Like there is a asynchronicity that must be synchronized.
Time is not a constant and is feeling elastic (like flofrog has nicely defined).
Generally the past and future has less relevance and everything focalizes to the presence.
Does someone else have such feelings?
Reading the Ra material had given the feeling of deep understanding to me, but left me with a bit desorientation.
After beginning to read Carla's "A wanderer's handbook" i could find myself in the stories, and the presumption to be wanderer explains all the unknown feelings and events that happens in my previous life.
The presumption turns more and more into certitude of being a wanderer in the last year.
There is the feeling that i am here at this place for a good reason. It would be wrong to leave the place where i am living, that i have choosen in 2012.
Today there was a very intensive feeling of disharmony with my body and my surroundings.
My intuition let me go outside into the forest and meditate to get clear.
After a short time the disharmony transforms into the perception that a transformation process is working heavily.
I am feeling still like having a distance to my body and intellect and being a observer of all.
But it is not the feeling of desintegration, it is like seeing of all being in transformation, without understanding what is really going on.
It's more like observing that the Ego is not the leading authority any more and will go more and more into symbiosis with the soul / higher self.
So for the intellect it is more fascinating then the fear to get crazy. There is the perception that everything is fine.
Additional there is a common identity with this planet and especially with the matter of it.
Like there is a asynchronicity that must be synchronized.
Time is not a constant and is feeling elastic (like flofrog has nicely defined).
Generally the past and future has less relevance and everything focalizes to the presence.
Does someone else have such feelings?
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