Depression and Accepting or Resisting Futility

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Deciding to be a wanderer does not mean you have everything decided. Even if you decide you want to be of service to others, for instance, then there is deciding HOW, but then for that to matter, one must decide WHY. Not just why one wants to be of service to others, but why one wants to be of service to others in the way one does, then one must decide whether or not that reason given is truly and fully honest, and if there is not a deeper motivation to explore. The underlying motivations for everything, including both our goals and our self-sabotage, can be quite complex and require much introspection to figure out. Meanwhile, one may suffer with the depression and futility that comes with having yet to sort out these questions to one's satisfaction.