Depression and Accepting or Resisting Futility

[sillypumpkins]

as always great questions fool. really got me thinking.

the only thing that I don't quite get is...

In order to dive into the heart of your being and accept yourself in all your imperfections, you need to have access to your own green ray energy, right?  Isn't it the radiance of the heart's love which transmutes sorrow into love?

speaking from personal experience, the more open my heart has become, the more sorrow I have felt. not even "more" sorrow, necessarily, however its no longer a dull feeling like it used to be. the experience of sorrow for me has become much more acute as my heart has opened. ive taken to calling it "divine sadness". i often feel i am providing a service when i allow myself to feel this so..... I do wonder some times.

anyways I might be missing your point here. or might be conflating it too much