03-09-2021, 04:48 PM
Oh wonderful!
I love Aaron Abke and am slowly making my way through his content.
To be honest, there is so much available material out there about all of this LOO and Ra and meditation etc...
I feel like right now my calling is to absorb as much of this LOO material as I can, but I realize full integration of all of this heavily philosophical material will take time. But my hunger for more information is strong. I'll be honest, the past 3 - 4 nights I've been up past 5 AM watching youtube videos and reading the forums here. As I said before, I have addictive tendencies. But I also have an awareness of those tendencies and can recognize the feel of that energy when it arises in me.
One other thing that I wanted to mention:
When I saw the intuitive in 2016, she also told me she was surprised by how many guiding forces I have behind me. She said "Wow Ben, you have many many guides behind you who are all rooting for you."
I didn't know much about guides at the time or how many each of our souls have, but now I think most souls have at least one at all times. I think I read recently that guides can change and increase / decrease for us as we go about our lives. But they are always available to us. But they will only intervene in our lives if we ask for help. Lately, I have constantly been asking for help and putting out that energy in my meditations.
I will be honest and say I had a crazy experience in my meditation last week -- I felt like I received a response. An energy around me pulsating the message "YOU ARE WE ARE YOU ARE WE ARE YOU ARE WE." It was like a booming voice all around me, not just in my head. But of course as soon as I let my attention focus on that change in energy it all vanished.
I am desperate to make some kind of contact. I also am aware that my darn thinking mind is my own worst enemy. But I am motivated. I will keep trying every day.
I love Aaron Abke and am slowly making my way through his content.
To be honest, there is so much available material out there about all of this LOO and Ra and meditation etc...
I feel like right now my calling is to absorb as much of this LOO material as I can, but I realize full integration of all of this heavily philosophical material will take time. But my hunger for more information is strong. I'll be honest, the past 3 - 4 nights I've been up past 5 AM watching youtube videos and reading the forums here. As I said before, I have addictive tendencies. But I also have an awareness of those tendencies and can recognize the feel of that energy when it arises in me.
One other thing that I wanted to mention:
When I saw the intuitive in 2016, she also told me she was surprised by how many guiding forces I have behind me. She said "Wow Ben, you have many many guides behind you who are all rooting for you."
I didn't know much about guides at the time or how many each of our souls have, but now I think most souls have at least one at all times. I think I read recently that guides can change and increase / decrease for us as we go about our lives. But they are always available to us. But they will only intervene in our lives if we ask for help. Lately, I have constantly been asking for help and putting out that energy in my meditations.
I will be honest and say I had a crazy experience in my meditation last week -- I felt like I received a response. An energy around me pulsating the message "YOU ARE WE ARE YOU ARE WE ARE YOU ARE WE." It was like a booming voice all around me, not just in my head. But of course as soon as I let my attention focus on that change in energy it all vanished.
I am desperate to make some kind of contact. I also am aware that my darn thinking mind is my own worst enemy. But I am motivated. I will keep trying every day.
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