Messengers of Love

[Louisabell]

The Creatrix is self-sufficient, indeed, but the small self is not, evidently.  There's an awkward element being touched upon in this thread regarding how much light to take into oneself and how much darkness.  Taking in darkness, taking on the dark, can engender pleasant feelings of power, self possession, the wisdom of having "knowledge of the game" and all that.  As you say, one can learn much about self from all that. 

Oh dear, I most definately don't see myself as ever "taking on" the dark, but oh well, does it come anyway, or maybe it was always there to begin with and I just didn't see it before. Over time when circuits which carry the belief that everything in your path is for your highest good, are thoroughly energized and ran into the deep roots of mind, it just makes it so, because the deep mind is that powerful, or so I think. I always thought that the sending of love to a negative greeter was always for the effect on the sender, not so much the receiver. It puts the interaction in right-relationship. There are fruits which are yielded from the light, and then fruits gained from lessons with the dark. It would be inauthentic of me to not be utterly grateful for both. There is a part of me that is apprehensive about allowing my full appreciation to shine, lest it invite further catalytic action, so there is some weariness there. Yet I am finding that sometimes the powers of positivity can reach almost gross levels.  

At the same time it can become its own untidy little sinkhole in this sense.  Access to full-flowing self-awareness in the higher energy centers requires basically all of one's spiritual energy to be employed in this effort, and this is assisted by availing oneself of all available resources to support this upward flow of being (i.e., seeking support from spirit guides, angels and the like).  And it is retarded when significant amounts of energy are used to take in or take on the darkness (because significant amounts of energy are therefore unavailable for the upward journey of seeking fuller consciousness).

Of course, this is not an either/or proposition, particularly when one finds within oneself, let's say, some significant propensity to groove with powerful feeling vibrations.  In that case one must surely learn about what one is given to find within.  My only concern here (in posting this thread)--for any to take or leave--is to note that accepting maximal spiritual help (as measured by your own standards) is a very productive way to move closer to experiencing one's own true vibration.  This might be an important reminder for those whose goal is to be of service to the Creatrix by vibrating as your deepest being and are hoping to move in that direction efficiently.
   

Well, I don't see belief as a switch that you turn on or off. I see it as something you potentiate with infinite degrees of intensity. So when I spoke of self-sufficiency, I meant the means by which we carry the charge within to allow one's self to be moved, inspired, guided and ultimately used as an instrument of the Creatrix. That is what I see as self-sufficiency, not so much the lack of interaction with other-selves.