01-18-2021, 07:30 PM
I wanna share some more w you guys
So, I've always had issues with being creative. I've wanted to be an artist since before I could remember. However, I've always had this thing where whenever I've sat down to make something, I just freeze up and it's terrifying. I've actually realized that a big part of this is from some trauma in childhood. I remembered recently, when I was about 10 I wanted to join my school band so I asked my parents to buy me a saxophone. I remember one of my parents saying (i think it may have been my dad) that "he's not going to stick with it so why bother." This colored my life in a huge way until now, but I digress.......
I also think this "freezing up" was due to an overemphasis on the masculine energies at play in my consciousness whenever I created art.
anyways, like I stated previously I am beginning to see more clearly the divine masculine and feminine and how their relationship gives rise to All.
I've been thinking about this especially in terms of the creative process and art. And it's like.... when you're creating, I feel as though it is vital to cultivate a safe space for both the masculine and feminine to interact within you. So the sort of "job" with creating, is making sure that those two things are getting along. It's sort of unlike anything I've ever experienced (consciously at least), because you're sort of responsible for maintaining a harmonious relationship between these two aspects. One could say that the creative process is like dreaming up a bedroom with a lustful man and a lustful woman in it, and you're playing both parts!! That's not a very effective analogy though, because the experience is just beyond that.
Funnily enough, I've been struck by the similarity between creative activities and sex/intimacy. Which is honestly kind of hilarious, because they obviously have everything to do with each other.
I feel very moved and humbled by this experience and again I want to thank everybody who replied to this thread. I am forever grateful for all of you for being here, so thanks
So, I've always had issues with being creative. I've wanted to be an artist since before I could remember. However, I've always had this thing where whenever I've sat down to make something, I just freeze up and it's terrifying. I've actually realized that a big part of this is from some trauma in childhood. I remembered recently, when I was about 10 I wanted to join my school band so I asked my parents to buy me a saxophone. I remember one of my parents saying (i think it may have been my dad) that "he's not going to stick with it so why bother." This colored my life in a huge way until now, but I digress.......
I also think this "freezing up" was due to an overemphasis on the masculine energies at play in my consciousness whenever I created art.
anyways, like I stated previously I am beginning to see more clearly the divine masculine and feminine and how their relationship gives rise to All.
I've been thinking about this especially in terms of the creative process and art. And it's like.... when you're creating, I feel as though it is vital to cultivate a safe space for both the masculine and feminine to interact within you. So the sort of "job" with creating, is making sure that those two things are getting along. It's sort of unlike anything I've ever experienced (consciously at least), because you're sort of responsible for maintaining a harmonious relationship between these two aspects. One could say that the creative process is like dreaming up a bedroom with a lustful man and a lustful woman in it, and you're playing both parts!! That's not a very effective analogy though, because the experience is just beyond that.
Funnily enough, I've been struck by the similarity between creative activities and sex/intimacy. Which is honestly kind of hilarious, because they obviously have everything to do with each other.
I feel very moved and humbled by this experience and again I want to thank everybody who replied to this thread. I am forever grateful for all of you for being here, so thanks
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