a question on conspiracy theories and how to deal

[Diana]

It is indeed a challenge to be aware of the corruption in this world, especially when one is empathic and can feel the fear, sadness, etc. of others. 

I am with BrotherInWaiting that connection to nature is a very good way to balance the pressures of this world. Just even walking outside and feeling the sun on my face, looking at the clouds and trees, the birds—changes my whole outlook and it is very noticeable when I have been up against the human drama in some way.

And as Patrick says, change happens within each of us. That is not to say there is no place for activism. But it sounds to me as though you are not interested in that sort of immersion in the human drama. This from Ra on being a Wanderer and the human drama:

12.28 ▶ Questioner: Are most of these from the fourth density? What density do they come from?

Ra: I am Ra. Few there are of fourth density. The largest number of Wanderers, as you call them, are of the sixth density. The desire to serve must be distorted towards a great deal of purity of mind and what you may call foolhardiness or bravery, depending upon your distortion complex judgment. The challenge/danger of the Wanderer is that it will forget its mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom from which it had incarnated to aid the destruction.

So, in my view, the idea is to stay focused on your own path, whatever that is. It might be something as general as wanting to continue to advance forward in any way. The evolution of consciousness is not a simple thing. There is always balancing. One may have made The Choice to be STO, but it's not that simple moving forward, as love and compassion ideally is balanced with wisdom, and these two sides of the same coin can seem paradoxical. 

Regarding conspiracies, I don't think there is any efficacy in ignoring what goes on this world. But acceptance—not necessarily agreement—is the key for STO as difficult as that can sometimes be; in other words, detachment from outcome. From Ra:

80.11 ▶ Questioner: Could I say, then, that implicit in the process of becoming adept is the possible partial polarization towards service to self because simply the adept becomes disassociated with many of his kind or like in the particular density which he inhabits?

Ra: I am Ra. This is likely to occur. The apparent happening is disassociation whether the truth is service to self and thus true disassociation from other-selves or service to others and thus true association with the heart of all other-selves and disassociation only from the illusory husks which prevent the adept from correctly perceiving the self and other-self as one.

80.12 ▶ Questioner: Then you say that this effect of disassociation on the service-to-others adept is a stumbling block or slowing process in reaching that goal which he aspires to? Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is incorrect. This disassociation from the miasma of illusion and misrepresentation of each and every distortion is a quite necessary portion of an adept’s path. It may be seen by others to be unfortunate.