I want to explore the negative polarity.

[Dtris]

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All I'm saying is sometimes there is no higher purpose in suffering. Sometimes suffering is just pointless bullshit. And why should you do that to yourself in the first place? If it's all just mostly chance whether it works out or not...

Suffering, just like any other experience, only has the meaning you give to it.

If you believe it is pointless, it will be. If you believe it can teach you, then it will.

Due to past experiences you might be deeply pessimistic, your thoughts are habitual as well. Your perspective is based on your beliefs and habitual thought patterns. These can be changed, with effort, to see good and joy and peace. It just takes effort and some help sometimes. This is not self delusion either, the dark side will always be present, it is just a matter of which side you decide to focus on.

You may be tired and changing your life, your beliefs, your thoughts might be daunting. You might think that you have already tried and failed so why try again. Well, what else are you going to do? You either slowly die a miserable death, or you quickly do so, or the alternative is to change yourself and become the best version of yourself. It is slow and there will be set backs, but determination will eventually get you to your goal. Start small and do one thing at a time and before you know it you can drastically alter your life.

You have the strength, you have the ability, but do you have the desire and the determination to see it thru?