12-27-2020, 07:25 PM
Just to echo Ohr Ein Sof's post.
Myself and I know many others through this sight and elsewhere came from quite brutal homes/environments. If it can be forgiven it stops Karma for the lines the negative energy traveled through. It’s a gift to 3D beings here to have karma stopped where ever it can be as it lightens the collective load.
I know “we” aren’t always there yet. Eventually though the catalyst pushes you far enough on the path that it brings you home - unity. Those not ready it can enable them to use it to polarize STS even if that wasn’t the intention at incarnation. Still it is just a place along the path, eventually we all come home.
If the suffering is your main clue you think you were meant to incarnate STS I would not take that at all as proof. What hardens some hearts softens other's.
I guess that is the path of STS if one keeps using catalyst to close the heart further but sometimes it’s just the sink hole, generally an unhealed wound. I would personally take a pass on using it to close the heart as I find that no fun at all. It’s much better now that I have let myself be softened to take something horrible and instead chose to forgive, let it make you rise out of the material plane into a more beautiful spiritual awareness.
I mean catylist sucks no matter the path but at least feeling you’ve become a kinder, gentler more compassionate person vs growing in fear/seperation. It actually feels like winning to me, something that could have made you grow towards cruelty but instead transforming it, alchemy to make you instead grow in love.
Something tells me this could be sorted for you much simpler if you could get out of the thought part of the brain. We tell ourselves stories of comparison with plots of pain and survival but if you stop time for a moment. Stop the storey and just observe the moment, not thought of future or past, not comparing it to any other, or ideas of how it’s supposed to be, each moment is actually less horrific, kind fine actually. Then we have to admit it’s our minds, our expectations and the story we tell our selfs that sucks.
Moving from the head to the heart. What you find in that awareness is a better representation of where we belong/who we are than all the thoughts and ideas in the world.
Regardless I regret you obviously feel alone and have been wounded.
I’m working my hardest to polarize and mop up karma because I think to many are in this state. Feeling stuck, wanderers are stuck too, it’s time soon for 3D to start a new cycle elsewhere. Hopefully it will start a bit kinder so the confusion and isolation will be less heavy. The veil to continue thinning here so those who can will liberate themselves from the confusion and become unstuck. Remember themselves.
It’s been a hard journey ((((hug))))). You are not alone.
Myself and I know many others through this sight and elsewhere came from quite brutal homes/environments. If it can be forgiven it stops Karma for the lines the negative energy traveled through. It’s a gift to 3D beings here to have karma stopped where ever it can be as it lightens the collective load.
I know “we” aren’t always there yet. Eventually though the catalyst pushes you far enough on the path that it brings you home - unity. Those not ready it can enable them to use it to polarize STS even if that wasn’t the intention at incarnation. Still it is just a place along the path, eventually we all come home.
If the suffering is your main clue you think you were meant to incarnate STS I would not take that at all as proof. What hardens some hearts softens other's.
I guess that is the path of STS if one keeps using catalyst to close the heart further but sometimes it’s just the sink hole, generally an unhealed wound. I would personally take a pass on using it to close the heart as I find that no fun at all. It’s much better now that I have let myself be softened to take something horrible and instead chose to forgive, let it make you rise out of the material plane into a more beautiful spiritual awareness.
I mean catylist sucks no matter the path but at least feeling you’ve become a kinder, gentler more compassionate person vs growing in fear/seperation. It actually feels like winning to me, something that could have made you grow towards cruelty but instead transforming it, alchemy to make you instead grow in love.
Something tells me this could be sorted for you much simpler if you could get out of the thought part of the brain. We tell ourselves stories of comparison with plots of pain and survival but if you stop time for a moment. Stop the storey and just observe the moment, not thought of future or past, not comparing it to any other, or ideas of how it’s supposed to be, each moment is actually less horrific, kind fine actually. Then we have to admit it’s our minds, our expectations and the story we tell our selfs that sucks.
Moving from the head to the heart. What you find in that awareness is a better representation of where we belong/who we are than all the thoughts and ideas in the world.
Regardless I regret you obviously feel alone and have been wounded.
I’m working my hardest to polarize and mop up karma because I think to many are in this state. Feeling stuck, wanderers are stuck too, it’s time soon for 3D to start a new cycle elsewhere. Hopefully it will start a bit kinder so the confusion and isolation will be less heavy. The veil to continue thinning here so those who can will liberate themselves from the confusion and become unstuck. Remember themselves.
It’s been a hard journey ((((hug))))). You are not alone.
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