12-26-2020, 08:27 AM
(12-25-2020, 10:03 PM)zedro Wrote: If you're true (higher) self didn't really want to be here, you wouldn't currently be incarnated here. It's that simple.Yes, you state a simple fact. It does not take away that some of us are traumatized and if you haven't been, you may yet get your turn. It is kind of like "anything goes" where there is such a mix in polarity. Before we can "work on" anything, we have to get to that place where we are strong enough to do so; not that whining around will get us there (because actually it exacerbates the feeling of depression) but just maybe someone's encouraging words will assist the seeker in that extra push; after all that is one reason why there are many of us.
What your ego feels right now is pretty irrelevant, at least as it pertains to this question. If you feel you don't want to be here, it means you have something to work on.
Edit: the above is more for wanderers that chose to be here, and don't have karmic ties to hold them. Earthseeds on the other hand are a whole other affair.
Since there seems to be a continual barrage of mixed experiences on this planet, one might consider getting busy with it instead of pondering why it hurts so much to be here. In the reality of this particular illusion we all find ourselves in, there are only a couple viable options. Ignore catalyst and allow it to revisit you in different scenarios or seize catalyst and begin working with it. This will not MAKE it better but what it does is it builds strength, vitality and Will. You turn your attention toward it whenever you can and face it. It only needs be one thing and you will be instructed when it is time to face yet another. Look around you. There are some of the most beautiful things imaginable. When I am hurting, I will connect to one thing that I truly find is the most beautiful thing I can look at and then I get completely and utterly lost in those thoughts. In this way, I feel close to our Creator and that pervasive feeling of disconnect vanishes. Even if it is only for a day, it is a day of bliss and total excitement.