What is the soul and how may I approach it?

[Ohr Ein Sof]

It seems to me you are experiencing that essense even as you typed because it is also apparent to me you are very much aware of yourself, your true "identity", the real self also known to some in this experience as Peregrine, and so very much more than that as You know it to be. From what I see in all your posts, you are aware of your true identity Now. This will slightly change with each new experience as something will slough off and another You is born again. You are, according to my observations, appoaching this knowing already. I could be wrong as we both know I have been lol.  

I thank you, OES, for the very generous evaluation.  I've put up copies of it up on my walls, mirrors, in my car, etc.  And, by the way, a cheque is on the way for the exact amount we agreed upon.


For many years I've been inching my way along like everyone else on a deliberate spiritual journey.  Much of that time was spent exploring conceptual models, clearing feeling and thought patterns which detoured my energy, and also delving into some of the weirder high frequency connections I just happened to have some connection with.  So, I was shoveling out crap from my lower centers, entertaining my mental apparatus and getting snippets of intimations from The Great Beyond, however, these elements were not coherently integrated.  Therefore, my capacity to be of any real service was significantly curtailed because...well...I could compare it to an automobile where the wires and hoses and all that are just not hooked together properly.  It will move around a bit, but I you wouldn't feel safe taking it out into traffic.

At the stage which you've come upon me, the elements are slowly beginning to work with one another and coherence is increasing.  The reason for this is that one additional element is now coming on line, and that is my heart.  As this little sucker is becoming energized, the other stuff is beginning to connect up, and, as you can probably guess, it feels pretty good.

What's funny for me is that the feeling on the inside of this mechanical restoration is very much what Ra describes as the lower chakras becoming balanced so that more energy rises to the heart.  Honestly, it's hard to believe that it feels this simple.  But I do feel less roll, yaw and pitch in my functioning on the human level, and my heart is becoming progressively more relaxed and--well--normal.

I do want to say, though, on aggregate, it's a not a feeling of personal change so much a feeling of the clarification of consciousness; that is, it feels like a new normal that's pretty close to the old normal, but where my human animal energies are less distracting and my love affair with Divinity has more room to be present in my normal consciousness.  It's maybe a bit like the transformation of the Jimmy Stewart character in It's a Wonderful Life.

Just to be clear, by the way, I feel I'm in the very beginning of this phase and that I will gradually develope with it for years to come (as you suggested above).  For instance, the business of the OP is not something I can (or feel I should) push my way into at this point.  I'm now just learning how to live with a human heart.

Thanks for noticing.  And, I might also observe that if you consider the above, it goes a long way towards explaining the biases of the ideas I've been pushing in many of my recent posts.  It's a naked, real life example of learn/teach.

   

it's a not a feeling of personal change so much a feeling of the clarification of consciousness; that is, it feels like a new normal that's pretty close to the old normal

This description is priceless.
Enlightenment or an illuminated conscious is not like stepping into this huge, one gigantic leap of change. It is so gradual that before even you know it, things have changed within and then without you. Only until we take time to reflect upon our personal journey does it become crystal clear that we have made a lot of progress. It does get easier as we go and we should really say this to everyone who struggles. It sounds so cliche; but it really is true. The average human being is wearing an infinite amount of heavy coats and when you are down to your last two coats to be removed, you sort of understand what needs to be done and look forward to shedding it. Hence, it gets easier as we go.
And yes of course, I think you know who you are, who you are becoming and who you once were. It seems so to me. I think we want feedback because we are in awe of the process which is so sublime we want others to feel and know it also. Sacred Fool, listen to your inner guidance system for the answers to your questions and I promise that it will come when you are not even considering it any longer. When you hear it, read it or however, you will know it is truth.
And in closing, You are a Living Soul. Lol. Yes, you are.