12-16-2020, 03:02 PM
(This post was last modified: 12-16-2020, 04:09 PM by Black Dragon.)
The most problematic thing I'm seeing here isn't even the OP's proposed choice of polarity, It's their reasoning and thought process behind the choice. You are looking at a choice in polarity a a practical, intellectual decision: Freeway seems to be jammed, I'll take the train to work. STO seems to be not working out, I'll flip and get to the creator faster the other way. A choice of polarity is so much deeper than that and requires knowing who you are as a person and what really motivates you, including from the emotional center and not purely the intellect.
I'll share my views on the issues which are that: my views, so take that which resonates, and toss the rest away, at least after considering how it makes you feel. I'm going to be candid, so please don't take offense to some of my language, analogies, or anything like that.
First: why the rush back, is not all the creator, even this 3d experience? Why not stop and smell the roses-or if all you smell is turds, at least to ponder why (before perhaps immediately deciding they are the dominant life form and wanting to become one yourself). Second, the way back to the creator is not simply choosing a path you feel is efficient and then grinding on it like some robot until you get back to source. The journey back to the creator is a journey into the self, a journey of knowing the self. Without some rudimentary basis at least of knowing the self, one is not even able to make the proper choice in polarity to begin with. I would say right now, what would be of most benefit to you rather than making a hardline polarity decision, is to focus on getting to know yourself and your true motivations.
The path to the creator...if that's about knowing the self, integrating the self...then wouldn't it be counter-intuitive to choose a path that begins with separation from the self? Here's a little thing others here have explained to me, that I'm beginning to understand: the STS path begins with a separation from the self. This is the basis for the part of vampire myths where they can't see their own reflection in the mirror. Paradoxically, the negative side does not embrace the shadow. It pretends it doesn't exist and then is subconsciously ruled by it.
In fact, I'd go as far as to say that the negative path is that of being ruled by external sources. Some describe the negative path as the path of winning, conquest, glory...some would extend that and say it's the path of sovereignty, self master, independence..very "libertarian" sounding. I'd like to provide an alternative viewpoint that the STS path is less the "mover" and more the "moved" in many key ways. Take it or leave it, but think about how it makes you feel and think about how you relate to these ideas personally.
My alternative viewpoint is that STS is the path of weakness, of conformity, of submission to authority, of defeat. It is the path of "kiss up, kick down". You will paradoxically be serving a lot of others on the STS path, except...they won't reciprocate, because they don't care about you. Think of the "Demiurgic" reality of the illusion, some of what appear as laws or as others perversions. The apparent negative nature of the illusion that says "survival of the fittest, dog eat dog, somebody's gotta lose for somebody else to win, your either a sheep or a wolf, blah blah blah".
The STS path doesn't question this or look within to be their own master. They accept this way of being as "natural" they submit to the apparent authority of the Demiurgic illusion rather than challenge it. When they finally get to mid 6d, they are slapped with the greater authority of unity so now finally accept it, once again not by their own independent seeking but being slapped awake by some greater authority. Then they have to switch polarities and go all the way back through as STO-yeah that sounds totally efficient to me. So strong and smart and courageous too, definitely the path of winners. Definitely driving the truck of life and not being dragged behind it on a chain. Woo go dark side.
To me, the underlying philosophy of the negative path is: "I am a machine. I am completely the product of my environment. I am 100% the sum of my parts and nothing more. Seperate, I am, but Independent, I am not."
One last thing to consider, perhaps most important. Who are you as a person? Are you capable at all of feeling empathy for others, do you appreciate others as more than just tools or means to and end, or are you a complete sociopath? If you have any bit of empathy and aren't a complete sociopath, the negative path will not be very successful or enjoyable at all. If you are an independent thinker and value your freedom, sovereignty, and dignity, which you seem like the type that does...again, you aren't going to have a good time on the negative path.
If you are just some self-centered sociopathic tool that's incapable of empathy, values others only insofar as they are useful, finds submission to authority preferable to independence, believes you are nothing more than a product of your environment, that existence is just some exercise in mechanical expediency or dominance, some race and not a journey to be savored...then go right ahead, the negative path is for you.
I'll share my views on the issues which are that: my views, so take that which resonates, and toss the rest away, at least after considering how it makes you feel. I'm going to be candid, so please don't take offense to some of my language, analogies, or anything like that.
First: why the rush back, is not all the creator, even this 3d experience? Why not stop and smell the roses-or if all you smell is turds, at least to ponder why (before perhaps immediately deciding they are the dominant life form and wanting to become one yourself). Second, the way back to the creator is not simply choosing a path you feel is efficient and then grinding on it like some robot until you get back to source. The journey back to the creator is a journey into the self, a journey of knowing the self. Without some rudimentary basis at least of knowing the self, one is not even able to make the proper choice in polarity to begin with. I would say right now, what would be of most benefit to you rather than making a hardline polarity decision, is to focus on getting to know yourself and your true motivations.
The path to the creator...if that's about knowing the self, integrating the self...then wouldn't it be counter-intuitive to choose a path that begins with separation from the self? Here's a little thing others here have explained to me, that I'm beginning to understand: the STS path begins with a separation from the self. This is the basis for the part of vampire myths where they can't see their own reflection in the mirror. Paradoxically, the negative side does not embrace the shadow. It pretends it doesn't exist and then is subconsciously ruled by it.
In fact, I'd go as far as to say that the negative path is that of being ruled by external sources. Some describe the negative path as the path of winning, conquest, glory...some would extend that and say it's the path of sovereignty, self master, independence..very "libertarian" sounding. I'd like to provide an alternative viewpoint that the STS path is less the "mover" and more the "moved" in many key ways. Take it or leave it, but think about how it makes you feel and think about how you relate to these ideas personally.
My alternative viewpoint is that STS is the path of weakness, of conformity, of submission to authority, of defeat. It is the path of "kiss up, kick down". You will paradoxically be serving a lot of others on the STS path, except...they won't reciprocate, because they don't care about you. Think of the "Demiurgic" reality of the illusion, some of what appear as laws or as others perversions. The apparent negative nature of the illusion that says "survival of the fittest, dog eat dog, somebody's gotta lose for somebody else to win, your either a sheep or a wolf, blah blah blah".
The STS path doesn't question this or look within to be their own master. They accept this way of being as "natural" they submit to the apparent authority of the Demiurgic illusion rather than challenge it. When they finally get to mid 6d, they are slapped with the greater authority of unity so now finally accept it, once again not by their own independent seeking but being slapped awake by some greater authority. Then they have to switch polarities and go all the way back through as STO-yeah that sounds totally efficient to me. So strong and smart and courageous too, definitely the path of winners. Definitely driving the truck of life and not being dragged behind it on a chain. Woo go dark side.
To me, the underlying philosophy of the negative path is: "I am a machine. I am completely the product of my environment. I am 100% the sum of my parts and nothing more. Seperate, I am, but Independent, I am not."
One last thing to consider, perhaps most important. Who are you as a person? Are you capable at all of feeling empathy for others, do you appreciate others as more than just tools or means to and end, or are you a complete sociopath? If you have any bit of empathy and aren't a complete sociopath, the negative path will not be very successful or enjoyable at all. If you are an independent thinker and value your freedom, sovereignty, and dignity, which you seem like the type that does...again, you aren't going to have a good time on the negative path.
If you are just some self-centered sociopathic tool that's incapable of empathy, values others only insofar as they are useful, finds submission to authority preferable to independence, believes you are nothing more than a product of your environment, that existence is just some exercise in mechanical expediency or dominance, some race and not a journey to be savored...then go right ahead, the negative path is for you.
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