I want to explore the negative polarity.

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Knowing that the end is near I just fear not making the harvest and not knowing exactly how much time is left just increases that fear.  I meditate sometimes not regularly because of all the negative emotions and thoughts. I know I have a lot to work on but I feel that most here don't have that. I sometimes notice my psychic powers increasing a bit and then falling and my mind breaking apart and I can't help but wonder that for most here it would be very very easy to gain that psychic power. It is all a matter of time spent in meditation and intensity. In a way meditation is like weightlifting and with a broken back it takes time to heal and a lot of time. I wish I didn't have to heal and could just skip that for I fear that in doing so I miss out on the harvest. The events on this planet are accelerating and with everything being in flux it is nearly impossible to make out a timeline. It could be this decade, the next five years or 3 centuries. Who knows really...
I have severe mental illness. I guess its probably a negative entity attachment or something like that. I think most here don't have that so they have it a lot easier. That's what I think. I might be wrong given that a lot seem to go trough a very harsh dark knight of the soul or something in that direction.

Throwawynegative132,

I just had that little thought reading this passage you typed above.

First I think its very difficult to evaluate whether one can be on harvest or not, and perhaps it is worth not considering it so much, trusting that perhaps, because we tend to judge ourselves very harshly ( Ra said it was a common trait to us humans in 3 D ) so... considering less the harvest, and whether we meditate enough or not, since perhaps some our actions are somehow a meditation in themselves of love towards Creator, would you in fact perhaps take the time to sit a few minutes and look at yourself as if stepping away, and perhaps say to you, ' here you are, incarnated entity. you suffer and yet you are resilient, you are in fact courageous, and I embrace you. You are good and ok.'

I know it sounds terribly cheesy but somewhere I think we all deserve this, you do too.