I want to explore the negative polarity.

[flofrog]

BTW, I wonder if you're only one here who "envies most people here?"  We're all just doing the best we can under adverse conditions, in my view, and I can't say that I envy that, exactly.  Or, maybe you're not referring to our condition, but to....what, would you say?  Is it that we are not burdened with the sense of fateful doom which is haunting you?
  

Your last question is so interesting , peregrine.

Throwawaynegative132, if such is the case for you, you have all my sympathy.

We all of us, at some point feel this sense of doom. Not easy. I found that if I start to feel gratitude for the very small things offered, this feeling starts to lift.