Does trying to get to STO defeat the purpose?

[jafar]

So after I die, will I find all this harvest and such was just part of the game, and that there is ultimately no harvest?

Maybe after you die so many many times.. and live so many many times..
Thus realize that you are not only you (as you understand it right now) but also he/she/it and them.

Think about this, when you gained access to the life experience of let's say Marilyn Monroe.
You 'remember' her joy and her grieves.. and you experienced it with 1st person perspective.
Will you not think you are (also) Marilyn Monroe?

Add also to your memory banks, the life experience of other avatars, Adolf Hitler, Genghis Khan, Hammurabi and Jesus.
Will you not think you are (also) them?

When you gain access to the memory of an avatar you will identify yourself as them.
That's how self identification works..

This is easy to understand and experience by let's say writing your own novel.
You create avatars / characters inside the novel, and as you write the story you are constantly changing your identification with each of the character, trying to figure out what he/she will say or do within the story. But all of those characters inside your novel is actually you, as you always gain access to all of their memory. You just temporarily identify yourself as each of them in order to write the story.

all things are one,
that there is no polarity,
no right or wrong,
no disharmony,
but only identity.
-- Law of One, Book 1, Session 4

But the process of 'gaining memory access' is performed 'gradually', one step at a time...