11-09-2020, 02:01 PM
I have no regrets at all for coming here, even though there are times when the suffering and sorrows in this world are overwhelming. As a child, I do recall thinking about suicide intellectually. But in general, no matter how tough it is to get along here and do what must be done, there is so much beauty on Earth to balance it, and I do have a sense of being here for a reason.
That sense of having a mission or being here for some reason seems to trump any oppression or depression deriving from how really hard it can be sometimes. When things spiral down, I imagine what I would feel in whatever afterlife I end up in, and I realize that I just don't want to bail no matter how painful it is. And I also remember to focus on the beauty of Earth, or even something mundane such as finishing a project, which does not make the difficulty go away, but it does make difficulty recede and take a back seat to more positive and productive ways of being.
That sense of having a mission or being here for some reason seems to trump any oppression or depression deriving from how really hard it can be sometimes. When things spiral down, I imagine what I would feel in whatever afterlife I end up in, and I realize that I just don't want to bail no matter how painful it is. And I also remember to focus on the beauty of Earth, or even something mundane such as finishing a project, which does not make the difficulty go away, but it does make difficulty recede and take a back seat to more positive and productive ways of being.