11-06-2020, 02:26 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-06-2020, 02:36 AM by Louisabell.)
When I think about it, the answer is no I haven't. There have been times when I've felt despair, terror and a general dissatisfaction of this place, but after further consideration, I've realised that I hold an attitude central to my heart of "it's time to get to work". And there is the expectation that during a hard day's work, one would get dirty and experience aches and pains. And yet, I just push through, as work must be done. I think I can thank my childhood conditioning for this attitude.
Also more recently in my life, during an intense meditation session, I managed to shoot through beyond my everyday human consciousness into what I can only describe as an eternal state. It felt like my focus which fixes me into this reality just unraveled, and I was out of the "waking dream" of 3D life. I sensed that there were others closeby who were just like me. No words can describe how short my human life seemed when compared to this eternal state. It felt exactly like my whole life was just a day-dream, and coming out of it felt like coming out of a daydream after having lost myself to its thought-stream. Just like a blink of eye.
I haven't accessed that consciousness yet again, but it was a profound enough experience that it left me with a lasting sense of proportion. So I do see life as a gift, I feel that life is short and consider it a wise thing to try to make the most of it.
Also more recently in my life, during an intense meditation session, I managed to shoot through beyond my everyday human consciousness into what I can only describe as an eternal state. It felt like my focus which fixes me into this reality just unraveled, and I was out of the "waking dream" of 3D life. I sensed that there were others closeby who were just like me. No words can describe how short my human life seemed when compared to this eternal state. It felt exactly like my whole life was just a day-dream, and coming out of it felt like coming out of a daydream after having lost myself to its thought-stream. Just like a blink of eye.
I haven't accessed that consciousness yet again, but it was a profound enough experience that it left me with a lasting sense of proportion. So I do see life as a gift, I feel that life is short and consider it a wise thing to try to make the most of it.