02-01-2011, 03:07 AM
(01-31-2011, 11:11 PM)AppleSeed Wrote: Can't resist jumping back in here. Why slice? I can relate to the wish (wouldn't mind being a little less trigger-sensitive myself), but wouldn't it be more wholesome to engage the part of self that can accept, and ultimately forgive, the self that carries the baggage? We all have baggage, and even those who don't, carry the potential.
Good question. It sort of sounds like Fire without the Love when you view it that way.
I don't know what Ra or Q'uo have to say about this, but for me long accumulated baggage comes in different categories. Some is still lesson-laden, still hard to digest, and some is just there because it was never disposed of. So, answer #1 is that some of it, yes, needs conscious acceptance and so forth while other stuff can simply be cut away because it's already been processed unconsciously. For those who've been in this game for a long time and have a heavy accumulation, the latter approach can feel quite nice...for awhile...until the next catalyst comes down the pike.
The second answer is: not to worry! As you pointed out above, these things spiral around. Often one layer gets sliced away only to reveal a variant form, perhaps more encompassing. If you missed a chance to love the catalyst the previous time, just keep your eyes open for the next opportunity coming to a theatre near you, as it were.
...but you knew all that...
One additional thought: Sometimes it feels good to carry a big burden of ancient dissonance, not because it's healthy, but because it gives a sense of identity (burden bearer) or because it feels familiar or because one can learn to project the dissonance and feel a sense of power from that, etc. Once I became aware of such like in myself, it took me some years to release myself from that fondness for heaviness.
Happy jumping!