01-30-2011, 10:22 PM
I wholeheartedly agree with Josh. Be easy on yourself. I remember trying so hard to "meditate," which meant "having no thought at all," that I was severely disappointed with me when I couldn't "banish" them. Finally, I just decided to do the best I could, and that's when real progress happened. I learned that "trying to meditate" counts as meditation, too. My attitude improved just from trying, and the next time I didn't have to try so hard.
In fact, "progress" is a much better term than "discipline." Set your intention to have progress rather than improved discipline. Accept yourself right now, then allow the improvements.
I had a major self-improvement task one time years ago, and came up with this: I would go over it in bed as I waited for sleep and again in the morning after I woke. That's all. It took months, but the turnaround has stuck for about two decades now. For me it was huge, too. I never want to be the awful person I was before.
Lee
In fact, "progress" is a much better term than "discipline." Set your intention to have progress rather than improved discipline. Accept yourself right now, then allow the improvements.
I had a major self-improvement task one time years ago, and came up with this: I would go over it in bed as I waited for sleep and again in the morning after I woke. That's all. It took months, but the turnaround has stuck for about two decades now. For me it was huge, too. I never want to be the awful person I was before.
Lee