Negative Entities at Higher Vibrations

[Kaziel]

A devoted shaman who is living in a city / town cannot or rather has a great difficulty to come forward in truth and serve other-selves as a healer...
So to stress again, I think if you want to keep doing this work, though perhaps you don't have to at this moment, as a shaman you'll have to face your fears so you can help others heal when they face their fears and not be swayed (balance)... I feel that you may be perhaps a bit too harsh on your incarnate self, and perhaps some tender acceptance of your condition might be of aid, I mean that it is ok to be human and do human things...
Also, perhaps another service of a shaman is the service to lingering spirits, perhaps that might be something that you encountered that scared you.

Thanks again, ada. I definitely needed to be reminded that it's alright to do human things. Sometimes I don't want to do even the simplest of human things. I just get worried sometimes that I will get stuck in the human condition and hold myself back too much, I have a somewhat addictive personality and can easily end up slipping into base behaviors. I wish I could say I were a devoted shaman, but I've been seriously off my practice. I should be less harsh on myself, I just know that I am not living up to my potential, I can feel as much. I simply need to focus on what's mine to do and always try my best to maintain balance.

And then to touch on that last point, it's not lingering spirits that give me a fright, that much seems fairly manageable for me. I have a good connection to ancestor spirits, and honestly haven't come across too many lingering souls. I've been able to discern that the entities stymieing my growth are higher density negatively polarized, one could think of them as part of the Orion, as they've shown themselves to be more.. reptilian in nature. I haven't been visited by them in quite some time, but I haven't been doing any adept level work either. A large part of me is worried that opening back up will attract them back. I liken such work to shining a bright beacon in a dark void, it makes you noticeable.

I've also just found this quote which reads, "Being under attack is not always a sign of being on the right path. Attacks can sometimes serve as false confirmation in order to cattle-prod the paranoid into clutching more tightly onto their deceptive belief system... For those on the right track, attacks are far more sophisticated; they seek to undermine faith and pressure one into committing self-sabotage".