Greetings everyone, this is my first time posting here on this forum, though I have browsed it much before.
I have an intimate understanding of the Law of One and other spiritual matters, having undergone a serious initiation a few years ago.
It was very intense and I would liken it to a shamanic initiation. I was fully in this plane and lower realms simultaneously, able to see spirits and entities and read peoples minds, but I had no control over any of it, so it was completely overwhelming. I chose to step away from that path for now, it was too intense. I'm still young, in my mid-twenties, and it was not great timing for me to fully embrace a shamanistic path with ease. Now I have a lot of empathy for people who do not make it through those initiations because it was truly extremely challenging.
Anyways, I am here seeking perspective on where I am at now. 3D is not my native vibration and sometimes I find it very tiring to be in such a physically dense vehicle. I'm sure some of you may be able to relate, I will wake up some mornings and feel how heavy my body is and think to myself "man, it sure is weird being stuck in this human body". This is something that I've come to terms with, as I've had many, many human lifetimes here on Earth. I enjoy experiencing human existence, and I absolutely love this planet. It makes me very sad sometimes to see all of the deception and destruction taking place here. I would like to be able to begin doing work in the astral to help heal the planet, I have the ability, and I believe it is something that I am meant to do. Yet, ever since undergoing that initiation, whenever I do try to raise my vibration up to a point where that would be possible again, I seem to always attract what I can only call unwanted attention from negatively polarized entities. I have had very bad entity attachments that really took a lot out of me, some of which were even too latched for me to remove myself. I've had familiar entities from past incarnations follow me into this one, which I am told is unusual. My past Earth lifetimes have been fairly entwined with the occult, from shamanism to alchemy, etc. So, while I have this calling, this purpose, whenever I do raise up my vibration it becomes a struggle managing this unwanted attention.
It may be the case that I attract more of this attention than is typical, or maybe this is typical of all wanderers, I'm not sure. It is just consistent and always a lot. Of course, I am careful to always keep my guard up by putting up shields and claiming my sovereignty. I've just been been very messed up by this attention before, becoming depressed, violently ill, the works. I mean, it seems to be that the more advanced the magical working you are doing, the more you open yourself up for this kind of negative attention, just look at the example of Don Elkins himself. I've also come to the realization that while pursuing so called "white magic" the temptation or negligence to stray into darker forms of magic is exceedingly great. It is very easy to think that you are doing good, when you're really just serving the self and casting spells on others without their consent, for example. Or one may just want results without the hard work of serving others. It is no surprise that so many occultists are on the left-hand path, where the rewards are much more immediate. Is it even safe to be doing this kind of work? I've grown so tired dealing with negatively polarized entities that I've kind of reverted back into just living in base 3D vibration, having fallen back into poor habits. I do carry some guilt about this. I want to do keep my vibration higher and do what I am meant to do, its just been so incredibly taxing dealing with these entities. Has anyone else had this problem? Is there any good advice that goes beyond just "make sure to keep your shields up, and then nothing can affect you"? I would appreciate any and all thoughts on the matter.
Thank you very much,
I have an intimate understanding of the Law of One and other spiritual matters, having undergone a serious initiation a few years ago.
It was very intense and I would liken it to a shamanic initiation. I was fully in this plane and lower realms simultaneously, able to see spirits and entities and read peoples minds, but I had no control over any of it, so it was completely overwhelming. I chose to step away from that path for now, it was too intense. I'm still young, in my mid-twenties, and it was not great timing for me to fully embrace a shamanistic path with ease. Now I have a lot of empathy for people who do not make it through those initiations because it was truly extremely challenging.
Anyways, I am here seeking perspective on where I am at now. 3D is not my native vibration and sometimes I find it very tiring to be in such a physically dense vehicle. I'm sure some of you may be able to relate, I will wake up some mornings and feel how heavy my body is and think to myself "man, it sure is weird being stuck in this human body". This is something that I've come to terms with, as I've had many, many human lifetimes here on Earth. I enjoy experiencing human existence, and I absolutely love this planet. It makes me very sad sometimes to see all of the deception and destruction taking place here. I would like to be able to begin doing work in the astral to help heal the planet, I have the ability, and I believe it is something that I am meant to do. Yet, ever since undergoing that initiation, whenever I do try to raise my vibration up to a point where that would be possible again, I seem to always attract what I can only call unwanted attention from negatively polarized entities. I have had very bad entity attachments that really took a lot out of me, some of which were even too latched for me to remove myself. I've had familiar entities from past incarnations follow me into this one, which I am told is unusual. My past Earth lifetimes have been fairly entwined with the occult, from shamanism to alchemy, etc. So, while I have this calling, this purpose, whenever I do raise up my vibration it becomes a struggle managing this unwanted attention.
It may be the case that I attract more of this attention than is typical, or maybe this is typical of all wanderers, I'm not sure. It is just consistent and always a lot. Of course, I am careful to always keep my guard up by putting up shields and claiming my sovereignty. I've just been been very messed up by this attention before, becoming depressed, violently ill, the works. I mean, it seems to be that the more advanced the magical working you are doing, the more you open yourself up for this kind of negative attention, just look at the example of Don Elkins himself. I've also come to the realization that while pursuing so called "white magic" the temptation or negligence to stray into darker forms of magic is exceedingly great. It is very easy to think that you are doing good, when you're really just serving the self and casting spells on others without their consent, for example. Or one may just want results without the hard work of serving others. It is no surprise that so many occultists are on the left-hand path, where the rewards are much more immediate. Is it even safe to be doing this kind of work? I've grown so tired dealing with negatively polarized entities that I've kind of reverted back into just living in base 3D vibration, having fallen back into poor habits. I do carry some guilt about this. I want to do keep my vibration higher and do what I am meant to do, its just been so incredibly taxing dealing with these entities. Has anyone else had this problem? Is there any good advice that goes beyond just "make sure to keep your shields up, and then nothing can affect you"? I would appreciate any and all thoughts on the matter.
Thank you very much,
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