08-20-2020, 01:29 PM
I experience something which I don't know a standard wording for, so I'll try to explain it.
The experience, in some part almost always there, is connected to a type of synesthesia. A large range of impressions concerning each thing is grouped into a mixed and very nuanced "sensation", a little bit like tactile sensation but much more varied than actual physical sensation.
It is also tied to visuo-spatial organization of abstract mental contents, too, and naturally links into something which combines with small abstract "shapes", more 2D than 3D, except the addition of another vaguely represented dimension of things being "inward-pointed" vs. "outward-pointed". But a more 3D shape instead of a 2D shape may capture a lot in a more broad and sweeping way, like a summary.
This stuff, which forms a background in inner experience much of the time to whatever is in the foreground of being focused on, is tied to my memories and inner life in a very general way. But, also, focusing more directly on these "energy" representations is a way of trying to reach into intuitive knowing about things.
Deep contemplation and large realizations push the intensity and variation of these experiences beyond the usual, in very memorable ways. And sometimes crisp, angular shapes formed of these abstract mental representations become windows into little slices of infinity, at the peaks of fruitful intellectual exploration of structured knowledge of the larger reality.
Does it make me psychic? Kind of, sort of; it links my mind at this level to my mind at another level, and there I am psychic, I'm sure; but my mind at that other level doesn't give me much clarity at this level most of the time. Instead, my inner life on the whole resembles a very curious long-term obstacle course where I'm learning something, but, well, what?
And, emotional stuff from other people in environments where I'm active is sometimes either felt by me, or enter into my inner experience in the form of curious reflections. And some other people seem to intuitively catch on to what's on my mind. At a higher level, I think this stuff "just works", but at this level, the overall picture is much more mixed and confused.
The experience, in some part almost always there, is connected to a type of synesthesia. A large range of impressions concerning each thing is grouped into a mixed and very nuanced "sensation", a little bit like tactile sensation but much more varied than actual physical sensation.
It is also tied to visuo-spatial organization of abstract mental contents, too, and naturally links into something which combines with small abstract "shapes", more 2D than 3D, except the addition of another vaguely represented dimension of things being "inward-pointed" vs. "outward-pointed". But a more 3D shape instead of a 2D shape may capture a lot in a more broad and sweeping way, like a summary.
This stuff, which forms a background in inner experience much of the time to whatever is in the foreground of being focused on, is tied to my memories and inner life in a very general way. But, also, focusing more directly on these "energy" representations is a way of trying to reach into intuitive knowing about things.
Deep contemplation and large realizations push the intensity and variation of these experiences beyond the usual, in very memorable ways. And sometimes crisp, angular shapes formed of these abstract mental representations become windows into little slices of infinity, at the peaks of fruitful intellectual exploration of structured knowledge of the larger reality.
Does it make me psychic? Kind of, sort of; it links my mind at this level to my mind at another level, and there I am psychic, I'm sure; but my mind at that other level doesn't give me much clarity at this level most of the time. Instead, my inner life on the whole resembles a very curious long-term obstacle course where I'm learning something, but, well, what?
And, emotional stuff from other people in environments where I'm active is sometimes either felt by me, or enter into my inner experience in the form of curious reflections. And some other people seem to intuitively catch on to what's on my mind. At a higher level, I think this stuff "just works", but at this level, the overall picture is much more mixed and confused.