Depression

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Thanks, something just clicked for me, I was on the train of thought and then checked this post.

For so long, I think I haven't been able to understand what acceptance means. I don't know how to 'do' it, or so I thought.
It is just leaving things where they are. The conscious mind is tethered to every experience it ever had only because it attempts to bring them in to the present.
Leaving things in the past means accepting they are exactly as they are, unchangeable.
I think I have striven for so long to be better than my past self, I haven't been able to recognize my present self.
That is the self that the wall surrounds, a wall built of ghosts and demons from my memory.
All along I've only been haunting myself, go figure.

Again, only referencing myself to offer an imperfect mirror.