I'm going to keep using negative energy for its benefits and make zero effort to love people who I genuinely don't love at this time, for the sake of my stability and sanity. This doesn't include blatant manipulation or exploitation for its own sake, of people who I have no ill will towards, at this time. But I embrace the power that comes with consciously using dark emotions, magnetic energy, and domination.
Three things can happen here:
1. I reach a point where I naturally feel OK with myself and other people, and my heart opens organically, or forgiveness at least becomes less risky for my mental stability. Dark emotions naturally take on a new context for me, conducive to positive growth.
2. I go very deep into the negative polarity, becoming negatively harvested.
3. I end up somewhere in between and repeat the cycle.
Both outcomes 1 and 2 are completely fine with me. We'll just see where it goes.
Some of my background is in Daoism. I'm a proponent of Wu Wei (without effort) and doing what one naturally feels after introspection and intuition. I also have a background in Chaos Magick. All paths of growth are valid, and I have no intrinsic attachment to any paradigm. If it works, it works.
Three things can happen here:
1. I reach a point where I naturally feel OK with myself and other people, and my heart opens organically, or forgiveness at least becomes less risky for my mental stability. Dark emotions naturally take on a new context for me, conducive to positive growth.
2. I go very deep into the negative polarity, becoming negatively harvested.
3. I end up somewhere in between and repeat the cycle.
Both outcomes 1 and 2 are completely fine with me. We'll just see where it goes.
Some of my background is in Daoism. I'm a proponent of Wu Wei (without effort) and doing what one naturally feels after introspection and intuition. I also have a background in Chaos Magick. All paths of growth are valid, and I have no intrinsic attachment to any paradigm. If it works, it works.