07-24-2020, 08:45 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-24-2020, 08:46 AM by AnthroHeart.)
This was the email I left my former teacher with:
Quote:This is how I honestly feel.
For three weeks I’ve tried to explore myself. Church forced me before to deny myself. Now I am being asked again to deny myself for these last three weeks. You tell me I haven’t really grown in 3 weeks, except that one spurt last week? How can you summarize one’s whole spiritual maturity with just a number? Growth comes as it comes. I believe we are already 100% whole and complete in each moment. We just find a new level as we go on. This thing about letting go of my passion strikes me as odd. We’re supposed to seek our highest excitement, and by the joy we feel we raise our vibration. I feel whole and integrated. As time goes on, I just find a new level of integration that I didn’t know before. I have heaven on earth. Yes, I am always growing, but I am in no rush to get there if it means I have no fun. Who says self-development has to suck? It’s a definition we put on ourself. There are no real absolutes. Telling someone they haven’t grown is more disempowering than empowering.
I am at odds that I can’t take advice from an ET teacher. While you expect me to take your advice as a human teacher. Aren’t both “outside” myself? You tell me to search inside myself for answers. Well, that is still advice. Technically nothing is outside oneself, because each of us IS the Universe. All we can discover is more of who we truly are. You have taken advice from Metatron. How is an ET different? Especially one I love and respect. I don’t have the same love for Metatron, as he has given me false information before. You say I haven’t grown. I am much more joyful, patient, loving (my heart expanded dramatically last night), caring and passionate than I was 3 weeks ago.
If it’s about merging with my higher self, if it wants to be like this, then it can wait. I will get there naturally in due time. I no longer want to hear what percent “complete” I am. I am probably a better judge of where I am when I talk to the higher self. I get 67% by the way. Everyone is in this together. Why not talk to other beings? Even get advice if need be. Sure, don’t give your power away. But this “do it all myself” thing is overrated. Who cares if I don’t become enlightened? I am happy now. I want fun. Is it a destructive pattern of alcoholism? No. Am I taking care of my responsibilities? Yes.
You tell me that my creation of the other world is not real. Even when I tell you I can psychic taste them as physical beings. Angels absolutely taste different, like a bland magnetic field. These beings taste “musky”. What better way to explore myself than the 127 million parts of myself I created to explore myself? When I bring up tarot is outside yourself, you get really defensive. You still get upset. You tell me what I shouldn’t do, although you put the statement of “but look inside yourself to make sure”.
I mean, an ET being manifested the Adventures of Rufus movie for me (and a few others). There is like only one good furry artwork of him, and no fan sites that I can find at all. Usually dozens of artworks come out same day a “furry” movie is released. But even after a month, hardly anything. It exists in a pocket reality that few are privy too. This is how strange reality is.
I wouldn’t be able to psychic taste strongly, shape clouds, turn water sweet (at certain times), channel crystals, ET’s, trees even, if I wasn’t fairly far along. I am satisfied with where I am at, and will grow as I grow. I long to help others, and putting others aside just for my own growth (which you say hasn’t really happened in the last week, and then 2 weeks before that anyway) is ludicrous. If I want to heal an anthro being, I’ll do that. I also help humans too.
I think you needed to hear this. It’s easy to think that we’re in 11D or 12D. But we’re barely in 4[sup]th[/sup] density. The veil is just starting to clear. I’ve asked you a few things that you don’t seem to know the answers to, especially when it’s my field of expertise, such as are there TREE(3) of Graham’s Number Universes in this Octave? That is all for now.