What is the Wisdom Density (5D) Like (and even 4D)?

[Asolsutsesvyl]

Here's some bigger-picture thoughts from a more detached perspective. In part following up on this post.

The whole drama may be planned at the time/space level, as I wrote earlier in this thread. Aion noted how you flipped between beliefs and ways of thinking about it all, and that brings me to how it psychologically works.

I think you're directed by mind at a level other than the 3D conscious level, to the extent that you're often in a hypnotic suspension of disbelief. As long as that goes on, your thoughts and what appears to be your beliefs about it all may flip from one minute to the next. And your actual more deeply-held beliefs at another level may be very different from what you're engrossed in at any given time at this level.

As far as that goes, I went through something very similar, for an extended period of time. It was part of the whole inner drama I experienced which led to me leaving the Cassiopaea community.

I will do my best to not jump to conclusions. I was told once that you can't take spiritual experiences at face value.

If you compare the "layout" and overall ways that one's life works to a house, then I think the role of this whole thing you go through can be compared to a rebuilding project. The results of the drama, especially in inner life, but also in outer (both part of the picture), will become clearer over time, and may make the nature of it all clear.

Presumably, a large part of it may be that the previous spiritual "order" of your life needed to be broken down and rebuilt. Though it remains to be seen what the new ends up like. You're still largely in the same mold of - from my perspective - not really questioning stuff very actively, very generally, and believing in this and that external spiritual message after the next.

I think with the spiritual teacher you leave - is it the same teacher who thought that covid-19 is a global kundalini awakening? - the significant thing is your leaving, not the reasons why you currently believe you do. I.e., your drama may have shaped up to drive you at this level to leave, for reasons other than those at this level.