06-28-2020, 01:39 PM
(06-28-2020, 11:07 AM)888 Wrote: I'm aware of the length of this incarnation being a tiny drop compared to the ocean of the soul. It doesn't weigh on my decision making process.
Not to overstate this, but I wasn't speaking of knowledge through reading, but experience through communion with one's soul stream...to whatever extent that may be. The effect is quite different, I can assure you. The difference, I would say, has to do with lingering--or not--sense of separation from a longer sense of self. That feeling of potential doom (to some degree) which you express is what I'm responding to here specifically. In a context of communion, the journey feels far more collaborative because one's entire sense of self(/selves) feels more collaborative and not as a dark burden one must bear alone. However, as stated above, although that sense of communal joy is something I wish I could share with you, Old Other Self, in fact, it is a pathway you must uncover on your own, ironically.
(06-28-2020, 11:07 AM)888 Wrote: Anyways, I'm only going to live in a way where I can feel stable, strong, passionate, dignified, and generally happy. At this point, I'm not sacrificing any of that for any version of enlightenment offered, because that might not be enlightenment anyways. Going with whatever I feel the most deeply, regardless of what it turns out to be, may also be the most valuable lesson for my eternal self.
These are good guideposts, and yet, if you are being shepherded by mutable feelings, will your course be true? Along with these feelings--or maybe through these feelings--I hope you will seek deeper, more constant emotions to guide your search for your identity in spirit. At deeper levels of self may lie more "plangent" voices calling you thither.
I wish you godspeed, as we used to say.