female wanderers

[Black Dragon]

As someone who's life experiences with most women do somewhat mirror the contents of the rants here, I can say I've explored these avenues of thought quite extensively. I even had a fairly recent dream that revealed some of these unhealed biases still within, in which I was talking to my mom after a stressful experience, where I said "No offense, but honestly, I'm attracted to women but I don't like them. They are shallow, judgmental, manipulative, and stupid." I was a bit surprised at myself when I woke up, because consciously and intellectually, I've realized those biases aren't true, and are ignorant and don't take the full picture into account. They are limited and illusory views based partly on surface life experiences and partly on junk energies cluttering human/societal morphic fields, archetypal conflicts that we pick up.

Part of the problem is also the pain body and shadow side, which can still hold on to these feelings to some extent even when we have made a conscious decision to broaden our view and look at things from a different perspective, as I found out from the dream. Still, just being honest and pondering the situation bit, it's easy to see that it's not something one gender or another is guilty of, so much as people in general objectifying and judging one another, from the standpoint of shallow, distorted, and societally conditioned pursuits and priorities. Take a man for example of the sort discussed in the rantings here, a self-serving, shallow, and basically intellectually and morally bankrupt jerkoff with a half decent job and car, or some generally respected position in society. For every female hanger-on that's drawn in by a guy like this there's at least one male.

The females are looking to be with him, the males are looking to be just like him. It's a two way street. People like us, we see the stupidity and the shallowness and the senseless misery these attitudes create, and we often jump to judgements of one group or another based on our own biases. It's the "evil patriarchy", or those "stupid b******" or whatever. No, it's just the more distorted parts of human nature exacerbated by societal conditioning. As wanderers we tend to feel alienated from all this, and a bit butthurt from all the judgment we've received from people who under our discernment(and sometimes harshly reactive counter-judgment), are quite full of s*** and have backwards priorities.

Choosing to continue ranting about their behaviors, especially from a biased view of one gender or group being the distorted ones, is continuing to connect to those morphic fields and make their reality and conflicts our own. I'm guilty of the same sometimes, but I realize it doesn't get me anywhere. Your barking up the wrong tree trying to ever get respect from those type of people, or to get people like that of either gender to be interested in you romantically, and even if you could, why would you? The only reason is despair and alienation. Sometimes it seems there's just so few people out there who "get it" to some degree, that the only way to have human contact is to try to connect with people who are "asleep", "playing the game", etc. We then try to "look for love in all the wrong places" and bring ourselves down into that world only to be disappointed.

I don't have all the answers. The best thing I can say is to love these people who are ignorant from a distance, with detachment, without trying to play on their terms or be part of their systems, conflicts, etc. Realize any of this that you've taken into yourself, and realize you are more than those limiting definitions that keep those people stuck, and that you don't have to be stuck in the same rut.