04-29-2020, 01:35 AM
(03-20-2020, 07:53 AM)Agua Wrote: Greetings, brothers and sisters!
I wanted to share my personal experience with the Corona Virus, in case it is helpful for some of you.
Background:
I live in Europe, Germany, and I am pretty close to the (current) epicentre of the situation.
I caught the virus myself and become seriously sick the past days. The symptoms were partly similar to a ordinary flu, coughing, sore throat, general weakness and pain, fever.
The critical thing was, breathing became more and more difficult and my respiration was near to not working anymore.
Additional background:
I have been working with Ayahuasca, a psychedelic plant medicine (that probably most have heard of) intensive for a few years now and have been apprenticing for quite some time now with a shipibo curandero, learning their ways with the medicine.
So I decided to work through this myself with the medicine.
Here is what I experienced in my healing ceremonies:
First thing that came up was an energy that was very dark, very painful and very very intense.
In fact, it was considerably more intense than what I experienced so far.
The medicine helped me to collect lots of it throughout my system and get it out.
After that „initial stage“ the path was clear to go deeper.
What I encountered was the virus itself working in my body. I will describe how it actually works (in my body).
It seems to activate a combination of „energetic states“ in my (predominantly physical system) system. (I say predominatly for lack of better words, it is on the physical plane, but the physical plane is not limited to what I thought the physical plane is).
They are physically located in the cells of the lungs and the bronchi.
So, those „states“ are:
- an energy that is completely live-denying. It is at the same time dark pitch-black, pale lifeless grey, very heavy, feels like a dead body. It is an energy of death, so to say. An energy, when activated, that actually terminates life on a physical level.
- this energy seems to have its origin in a)trauma b)very negative lifecircumstances in early years (violence on the physical, emotional and mental level) c) everything that added to this in later years like aggressive surroundings, unhealthy lifestyle (bad food, smoking, alcohol and so on)
- The second „category“ were „energetic states“ that could be described as „negative beliefs“, however not on a cognitive level, not on a mind level, but on a physical level. Beliefs that are stored as „physical states“ so to say.
- These beliefs and states are/were completely disempowering. They can be described as helplessness, powerlessness, hopelessness.
- Those are energies that all origin in trauma, we exactly these states have been experienced, they are deeply ingrained on a physical level, stored in the cells.
- The third „category“ is an intense fear to face these energies. This is because of the combination of powerlessness with a life-terminating energy.
- In that combination, there is a denial of those energies. Hoping it is not true if I dont look at it. Because, when I look at it, I will see an energy that terminates my life and there is nothing I can do about it.
- This fear is protected by a fear of looking at a fear, an energy that says „dont allow the fear“.
- This is a fatal combination!
- I found that the virus activates those energies in me, no matter if I experience them consciously or not. If I shy away because of fear, the program is running and I wont realize it before it terminates my physical life.
What happened next is, I went into the fear first.
It was quite intense, a fear of death. I was feeling I was about to die and there is nothing I can do about it.
I stayed there, not pushing it away. Then the „life-denying“ energy filled the space more and more. Without resisting it, I allowed it to spread fully. It was not a pleasant experience to say the least.
However, when I was in there completely, I realized this energy is NOT the truth. And so, it slowly started dissolving, making the lightful energy of truth behind it more and more visible.
I just started healing this energy and there is much more of it in my system, but it seems that is the path, at least for me.
Next thing that happened were I fell repeatedly in traumatic states. It was mostly states were I didnt understand at all what was going on, all I can say, there was something really threatening happening, I tried to fight against it, but didnt succeed.
I was completely powerless in those states.
Beimg in those states, they more and more „connected“ with my normal consciousness and I started to realize, they are not true.
This is hard to put into words, but in short, I could say as long as I fight, resist, deny, avoid I am still identified with that aspect of me, that beliefs this is happening right now.
The solution was to accept there is no solution, this opened up the space for the realization that these are OLD states and not true anymore.
But resisting, fighting, denying, avoiding I would keep them alive and hold them true.
I went into various aspects, that all seemed to stem from early trauma and they slowly started to appear less true.
Still a lot of work to do onviously, but my physical state after the ceremonies improved considerably. I still am sick, but it doesnt feel critical anymore.
Next thing I experienced was, I „met“ the irus consciousness. This experience complete defies words, but I ll give it a try nonetheless:
I experienced a huge consciousness, very different from what I encountered so far, very different from a human consciousness.
I met it on a, I call it spiritual and collective plane for the lack of words. It was a plane were I saw humanity as a collective and I experienced a consciousness (the virus) offered a sacred service to whole humanity.
I realized, that this will affect the totality of humanity on various levels, but mostly on a spiritual level, on a level of practical spirituality (as opposed to a conceptual spirituality).
In conclusion, I experienced that the virus activates a life-denying energy, that every human being carries to a degree, it activates an energy of total disempowerment that also every human carries to a degree and it activates existential fears that also every human has.
For the majority, those energies will not be life-threatening (as a physical outcome), but they will nonetheless have the opportunity (because they have no choice) to process, to work through these energies and dissolve at least a part of them.
Others will have a rough time because of the intensity, but will in the end be able to make it through.
Some will unfortunately not be able to face it sufficiently and those programs will play out and end their lives.
All those energies are energies that are already in us, they just come to conscious awareness.
They are NOT created by the virus.
The fear that goes around the world is fear that ALREADY is in us, it is not created by the virus.
Whoever may have „designed“ this virus on a material level, the virus benevolent conscious obviously is much more effective than any negative purpose some people might have hoped for...
Additional implications:
These are interpretations, so take it with many grains of salt.
This already affects almost the entirety of humanity.
Schools are closed almost worldwide, public life is being shut down worldwide and so on.
The majority of humanity is being sent into a retreat. Simultaneously.
The majority will be forced to slow down, to look inward. So many distraction fall away bit by bit.
Work. Consumption.
A tetreat is a big challenge, always. But it will initiate change and growth also for those who did not change or grow up to now.
Economic pressure, the pressure to function in our totally outward focussed lifestyle first increases and then collapses.
Economies worldwide will be seriously affected, but on such a large scale that its not about you or me, we or them, its about „us“.
It affects all of us.
And we all together will have to find a solution for all of us.
I am deeply comvinced that we will collectively have to re-evaluate how our economic system works.
Please take my experiences with a grain of salt. These are just my experiences.
Although I believe this is how the virus works, that doesnt mean its true.
It could be true only for me, who knows.
But hopefully there are some details that might help one or the other through the process.
Apart from that, I recommend to take it serious on a material level.
We should try to slow spreading down as much as possible. Our health systems operate close to the limit in normal times already.
When the number of infected increases too fast, too many people need intensive care at the same time. And when the health system exceeds its limit, a considerable percentage of people will not make it.
Get out of your little box!
The are almost 8 billion people on this world, even a small percentage like 1% percent would mean 80 millions.
A bigger percentage like 5% would mean 400 million people.
Much love
Agua
Many thanks, friend