What is polarity?

[Louisabell]

@Louisabell

As for the personality disorders, I wouldnt agree on that.
If you have a closer look, you find, that actually everybody has basically all of these disorders to a certain degree.
Those are just normal human themes.

You simply get a clinical diagnose when it exceeds a certain threshhold which makes it difficult to impossible to lead a normal life.

I guess they key is probably how you deal with it, which path you follow. It is entirely possible to fully heal all of these conditions, at least as long as they arent organic.
So its rather about if you make the choice to act it out in a megative way or if you go and try to heal it.

I agree that it works on a continuum. Many people try to heal from anti-social/narcissistic traits, but a clear indication that someone has one of these at a diagnosable level, is that they think there is nothing wrong with them. They commonly only go into therapy because of a run in with the law or being pushed into relationship counselling.

So I would rather ask what actually the „thing“ is that bothers you.
If I get you right, you are at a point where you dont know how to go on from here.

I dont believe this can be solved by clearer definition. There might be confusion, but you could check and see what happen, when you try to not find an answer, try to not understand whatever it may be what you seek to understand.I found myself the confusion itself is not actually a confusion but often an attempt to distract from something.
In that regard the confusion serves as something that continuously keeps your mind busy with the effect that you have no capacity left to deal with what actually is there, in terms of emotions and energies.

You could try to see if that resonates and if something arises when you relax and let go of understanding.

It could also be a „residue“ of trauma, in such a situation we often desperately try to understand what is happening, hoping to protect ourselves if just understand.
If that is the case, it is a futile attempt, because the situation happened in the past and cannot be changed. So it is about accepting a state that feels very uncomfortable and we dont understand anything.
So, trying to understand then actually is an identification with the aspect of ours that is still in the traumatic situation, and the act of trying to understand keeps the identification alive.
When we realize that actually this is not happening right now, we can let go of the identification, accept it as an energy from the past without the need to act it out.
Then it can lose its charge and dissolve and we get back to the present moment.

However, I dont really know where you are at, so this is half intuive half guessing!

I'm not so sure if it's a distraction, maybe more better termed a pre-occupation or fascination. Most likely there are things that cannot be understood and it is best to come to a level of acceptance of those things, yet some insights act like doors into the psyche. I suppose I am looking for a door. I am trying to understand a part of myself, which has come to perplex me. It's a question about our inner most motivations, beyond the motivation to be happy, behind all motivations, what is it that pulls us forward?

I imagine we all have trauma. This is a pretty traumatizing world, is it not? Are we intended to fragment into many pieces, so that we are employed in the attempt to put them back together again.

Beyond words, beyond abstractions, what motivates you?